Maintaining self-esteem is like keeping a bank account. Make too many withdrawals and not enough deposits and you soon deplete it. To be lacking in self-esteem is to be in a very dire situation. Much like being up shit creek without a paddle.
Low or non existent self-esteem can and often does lead to one making poor choices in life that in turn can set off a chain of disastrous consequences for as long as the core issue of self-esteem fails to be addressed.
Charlotte Dawson’s Story
Charlotte Dawson, an Australian TV celebrity suicided at age 47 in February 2014. Prior to her death Charlotte had publically admitted to suffering depression for over a decade, which she connected to the abortion she’d had 15 years earlier. In 1999 Charlotte married Olympic swimmer Scott Miller one year prior to the Summer Olympics being held in Sydney.
The newlyweds were considered to be one of the most glamorous celebrity couples in Sydney at that time. Soon after the marriage Charlotte was pregnant with her first, and as it turns out, only child she ever conceived.
She wrote in her autobiography: “Scott was not supportive of the pregnancy because the due date clashed with the Olympics. Everything Scott had done was leading up to this moment and nothing could stand in his way, so it was decided that we would terminate the pregnancy and try again later. Inside I was in total turmoil. I wanted the baby. How long would we have to wait? Were there any guarantees that I would fall pregnant again? Of course, I accepted without question that the Olympics was Scott’s number-one priority. He had told me that as did a number of invested parties.”
Things went from bad to worse for Charlotte when her husband refused to stay with her in the abortion clinic. He couldn’t cope with the atmosphere and left her there alone. “It was a horrible, sad time for me,” Charlotte reported, “but I had to keep reminding myself of what I had. I had a husband, and we were building a life and a home together. I wanted our baby, but I felt greedy, like I already had too much, that the termination was a compromise I should make.”
Charlotte revealed in her autobiography that she had been adopted at birth and sexually abused as a child. Her sacrifice of her only child for the sake of her husband’s Olympic career failed dismally. Sex tapes emerged around this time of Miller being filmed committing adultery with a female swimmer. He was also caught on tape doping to enhance his performance. Scott failed to make the team for the Sydney Olympics.
Her husband’s betrayal added even more devastation to the already shattered Dawson.
“If I’d started to feel pangs of depression after the termination, the shock of receiving this news barely six months into my marriage was too much to bear. Something inside me completely broke that Sunday, something that is beyond repair, something that has never come back. I was a broken mess. I had to pretend that nothing was wrong at work and at social functions while people were whispering behind my back… It was around this time that I learned the gentle art of drowning my sorrows with bucket loads of wine.
In observing with deeper insight in to the human condition and in having the ability to discern in an objective capacity, we clearly see the links, join the dots and connect Charlotte’s whole story to her compromised self-esteem. She had been abandoned at birth, abused as a child and didn’t feel she deserved to have it all, so she sacrificed her own hearts-desire for a baby and allowed herself to be set up in an unfair competition with her husbands’ career, which only led to a series of traumatic events. Charlotte attempted to conceal and repress her pain and trauma through medicating herself with alcohol – a depressant and extremely unhealthy means to coping, which only perpetuated her existing depression, further undermined her self-esteem and sense of worth and in turn ended in the horrific and tragic taking of her own life.
Regardless of the circumstances and events that made up the theme of Charlotte’s story the underlying and most often untold version of the story is experienced in countless ways the world over and rarely is the root cause that leads to the traumatic affects ever identified that alone acknowledged, addressed and healed. As a result we live in a world full of very traumatised and untreated sick people who only continue to add insult to injury through destructive patterns of behaviour and making irrational choices. Einstein’s definition of “insanity”- Doing the same thing over again and expecting a different result.
Self-esteem test – Stand naked in front of the mirror and admire your beautiful reflection. Can you do it? Can you tell yourself, “I love you,” without hesitation, cringing, kidding yourself, criticizing, nit picking or feeling incredibly uncomfortable? The point of the exercise is not about egotistic vanity or “perfection”. It is about loving yourself regardless of your flaws and mistakes, seeing more qualities than flaws. It is about loving who you are on a much deeper than physical level. If you cannot love, honour, value and approve of yourself just as you are, how can you expect anybody else to?
To be void of or to have low esteem and self-worth is to have little or a total lack of self-love, respect, honour, value, confidence, self-control and a host of other positive and vitally important qualities. Without high levels of self-esteem one can only ever expect to find themselves engaged in a constant battle with life, other people and most of all with self, for it is self-esteem that is the foundation of your entire wellbeing, spirit and energy. Self-loathing is by contrast the opposite extreme of self-esteem and ones greatest enemy.
Conscience is indeed linked to your self-esteem together with your thoughts, feelings, emotions, attitudes, beliefs and behaviour. Unless you were born a psychopath lacking conscience, it acts as the ultimate filter and deciphers whether or not a deposit is made into your self- esteem account or withdrawn.
Whilst the statistics of born psychopaths is said to be quite a low percentage of the population, the number of “secondary” psychopaths, sociopaths and narcissists is much higher and on the rise. These people were born with their conscience in tack, but it can be and is programmed out of the conscious of humanity through sinister mind control techniques and conditioning. The programming and conditioning may begin at birth if a child has a psychopath or narcissist parent, though not all of these offspring will take on the traits of the parent. Some will take the opposite route. However in taking the opposite route these people will have a victim pattern ingrained and will more than likely continue to attract psychopaths, sociopaths and narcissists into his/her life unless the pattern is broken and healed.
Others are programmed and conditioned into psychopathic and narcissistic behaviour through the influences of TV (it’s called programming for a reason) media including social media, entertainment, New Age religion, books, social and peer pressure and the general culture of a society.
Psychopaths are insane that is for sure. They can also be highly intelligent, but only on the ego level. Wisdom, rationale, common sense, logic, feeling and emotional intelligence are all lacking in these individuals, though they can be very good at mimicking and feigning these attributes.
Ruthless and cunning psychopaths are also well skilled in manipulation and influencing others to become just like them. In fact millions if not billions of others are influenced by psychopaths because psychopaths most often tend to hold all of the important positions of power and leadership. E.g. Government, religion, media, medicine, finance, science, entertainment and law enforcement, indeed all human welfare and environmental interests and organisations.
Contrary to popular belief psychopaths are not all housed in or destined for prison and mental asylums. A good majority of them are very much in the public eye, have been for years and continue to be free to carry out their worst evil acts and destruction outside the confines of barbed wire and brick walls and often they do this in plain sight. Also contrary to popular belief, psychopaths don’t necessarily look like the loony down the street or the vision that is conjured up in one’s mind of an axe murderer. It is actually more apt to liken a psychopath to the one you would least suspect of a heinous crime or the vampires depicted in the movies; charming, handsome and alluring…
The conscience plays a very important and significant role in the level of one’s self –esteem because if and when you ignore or repress your conscience, which is very much a guiding force in your life to be reckoned with, you will inadvertently undermine your self-esteem and self-worth. Furthermore your conscience is linked to the highest law that governs humanity and nature itself. This law is known as ‘universal’ or ‘natural law.’ Common law, constitutional law and even the ten commandments of the bible were written upon ‘natural law.’ There exists’ many separate laws within natural law that rules over and governs creation such as Gravity, Karma, Attraction, Free Will and the cycles of life. In further defining what natural law is consider this, “Do no harm.” Any act carried out against the wellbeing, health, life or property of another or inflicted even against oneself,is subject to the natural law of consequence.
Unfortunately and all too often as children we either didn’t learn about consequence at all or were taught it through harmful and destructive means like being beaten, cursed, yelled at, humiliated and berated. Few parents “think” of the “consequences” of treating children in such a manner, how they undermine the self-esteem and worth of a child and how this barbaric behaviour in turn teaches and influences kids to either grow up to do exactly the same thing to their own kids or in some cases, to be the exact opposite of their parents and go on to raise unruly kids who have little if no concept of consequences.
Tips and guidance for affective parenting techniques that teach ‘consequence,’ in a healthy and productive way, that won’t undermine and compromise your own self-esteem and that of a child will be the topic of a future discussion. For now let’s just say that your kids are a barometer of you. If there is any inconsistency or imbalances in your own behaviour, beliefs and attitudes, children will react to it.
Inhibitors and the issues that Undermine Self Esteem
This tops the list for a very good reason. Drugs, alcohol and other problematic and addictive behaviour such as gambling are now so rampant in society that the moral values of society itself can now be compared to the levels and semblance of literally living in a sewer among staggering numbers of very demented and insane people.
Define Alcoholic. A chronic disorder characterized by dependence on alcohol, repeated excessive use of alcohol, the development of withdrawal symptoms on reducing or ceasing intake, morbidity that may include cirrhosis of the liver, and decreased ability to function socially and vocationally
Alcohol is a depressant both for those who drink it in excess and for those who are subjected to the fallout of the abusers toxic behaviour. Alcohol abuse, whether through alcoholism, binge drinking or occasional excessive drinking leading to intoxication is in itself self-destructive and ALWAYS results in further destructive behaviour of self and/or towards others.’
Turn up sober at any place or event where alcohol is flowing and you are guaranteed to be in for a very toxic night of dysfunctional entertainment. You will bare witness to or be personally affected by the destruction of relationships, see a completely different side to people you know (usually a nasty, aggressive or immoral one.) You may find yourself caught up in an all in brawl, get sexually harassed, be preyed upon, abused, spat on and violated in countless other ways. Your safety and/or life may be jeopardized either because of your own stupidity or because of your heavily intoxicated girlfriend who put you into a dangerous and compromising situation.
Never overlook or underestimate the fact that baring witness to something that is destructive and toxic does and will impact you and affect your own self-esteem. Those who are particularly sensitive to energy will feel the dense dark energy wherever there is alcohol and/or drugs being consumed. Empaths will soak up all of the negative and destructive energy vibrations from all of those around them. If you haven’t learnt the tools and skills to protect and cleanse your energy field from this you will surely carry these negative energies within and in turn this will tax your own self-esteem and maybe even cause you physical sickness or physical/psychological/emotional pain and suffering.
Alcohol/drug abuse leaves you with a bad hangover (which is actually a withdrawal symptom) and on a downer at best or with one hell of a mess to clean up at worst. You may have regrets, embarrassment, shame or just feel plain vile. Whichever way it goes you have just taken a whopping withdrawal out of your self-esteem account because you have undermined yourself, acted against your better judgement,inner wisdom and the consequence is feeling lousy, guilty about and maybe even disgusted by what you may have done whilst under the influence. It is a cul-de-sac – the dead end, perpetuated through highs and lows totally lacking in balance and full of loopy loops.
Sadly, few have the sense or intelligence to connect the dots in order to figure out why they feel so badly about themselves and how they are their own worst enemy, contributing to their own downfall and to that of society as a whole. They actually think that being like everybody else and fitting in with the crowd somehow makes them as good as the rest. And parents, bosses, other superiors and peers only reinforce this false, negative and destructive belief through their own negative example. To be part of the crowd or to want to be like the rest is to be insane. Unfortunately there are few truly sane, healthy, balanced, empowered and inspired role models in this world.
Statistically as few as 15% percent or less of the population are immune to brainwashing. As for the majority who fail to take control and responsibility of their own minds and behaviour they are and will be controlled by somebody who will take control and that is often the psychopaths of the world. Easily manipulated, influenced and swayed into the status quo regardless of whether or not the culture is good, healthy and wise they are like putty in the psychopaths’ hands and have played right into their trap. There is nothing healthy, empowering, liberating, or feel good about the whole substance abuse status quo. It is a self-sabotaging death cult that is so incredibly contradictory to happiness and freedom, so sick and demented that whole communities are being completely desecrated by it.
Law of freedom – Freedom and morality are directly proportional. As the morality increases, freedom increases. As morality declines, freedom declines. You cannot possibly be a part of the status quo and consider yourself to be a “good” person with moral fibre whilst contributing your energy into the polluted and corrupted cesspool that has been engineered and fuelled by sick and twisted psychopathic ideology. Take a long, hard look at the massively growing amount of government laws and regulation and notice that you can barely do a thing these days without breaking a law or acquiring a license or permit. Not a problem to most for as long as the liquor and drugs are still flowing.
Substance abusers are really good at denying and forgetting everything in their refusal to take any responsibility for what they have done under the influence. Record them if they need convincing and replay it to them when they are sober. Hold them to account for their behaviour. Never cover up their tracks, gloss over, make excuses for or accommodate their actions. If they have done something inexcusable then call it for what it is. The substance is not responsible, the consumer is. If they can’t control the affect the substance has on them then the only rational solution is to stop indulging in the substance.
Lying, Cheating and Deceiving
Like substance abuse these issues too have become so status quo that many wear their lies along with their substance abuse like a badge of honour. “Everybody does it” is the common catch cry and justification. Generally speaking this is true. The majority of people are self-deceptive and delusional and/or lie, cheat and deceive others to one degree or another.
People only ever lie for one of two reasons.
1. They are ashamed of what they are doing.
2. They don’t want to warn others – just before they screw them.
If you are compelled to lie ask yourself why? Lying is a strong indicator that your self-esteem is low or non-existent. Try and pinpoint what destructive behaviour, negative or contradictory belief is causing you to feel ashamed and compelled to lie? How are you undermining and/or denying your own self-worth and esteem?
Compulsive and/or pathological liars and deceivers are so caught up in their web of lies that they have completely lost touch with and connection to any semblance of truth in regards to themselves and everything that spews out of their mouths. Some are so entrenched in literally living the lies that even those who are trained in reading body language and using other means of lie detection can be deceived for a time because these seasoned liars actually believe their own lies and they can stare you in the eye without so much as flinching. They will repeat the same rapporteur word for word which serves to reinforce the deception through repetition. Common traits of the liar, is that they always make promises that go unfulfilled. They are “gunna’s”. You know the type, “I’m gunna do this and gunna do that,” but for some unfortunate reason, usually through no fault of their own nothing eventuates. Time and getting trapped in their own web of deception will eventually bring their undoing.
If you suspect you are being lied to and deceived, follow your hunch by digging deeper. Words are cheap. Always pay more attention to actions and assess whether they align with the words. Demand proof and evidence to put your mind at rest. If someone admits to lying on meeting them or they justify the fact that they have lied, walk away and save yourself much grief. Staying with a liar, cheat or deceiver will undermine your own self-esteem because to stay is to accommodate and to be complicit with bad and abusive conduct. To deny this truth is to deceive oneself which in turn will lead to attracting your own consequences and more liars into your life as they will come to mirror your own self-deception and denial of the truth.
Cheating with a cheat does not make you any less accountable to the laws of karma and consequence. No matter how much you might try to defy natural law you cannot defy it any more than you can defy gravity. One way or another, the universe and your conscience will deliver the hard lessons. Every time you fail to learn the lesson it will be repeated ‘ten-fold’ the next time around.
Addicts are more often than not liars as well. They lie to themselves and everybody else every day in order to justify their addiction/s. Those with an addiction often have multiple or a combination of addictions. Whilst many addicts have a heart of gold when they are sober their negative attributes always far outweigh the positive in the end. They are walking the path of self-destruction and they will surely take you down with them.
Sin,Guilt and Religion
How on earth could religion inhibit and undermine self -esteem? The fact is religion does so consistently through the negative reinforcement of a destructive rapporteur that goes something like this. “You were born a sinner. God is watching everything you do and if you sin you will be cast into the hellfire with the devil on judgement day. If you were born into a religion that preaches in this tone then you were abused through traumatising fear tactics and threats from the outset.
The only truly innocent and pure souls in this world are those peering out of prams. How could you possibly be a sinner when you have not yet lived? Charged and condemned from birth religion merely reinforces self-loathing and promotes a guilty conscience. Plain and simple it is manipulation of the psyche, brainwashing, programing and conditioning which distorts ones perception of self, distorts truth and reality and corrupts the minds and hearts of its followers. As said former Bishop John Spong, “The church fired its furnaces hotter than anybody else. Religion is in the guilt producing control business.”
A guilty conscience attracts and reaps punishment as the consequence regardless of whether or not the guilt is justified. If you are repetitively shamed and accused of something even if you are your biggest accuser and even if it is an unjust accusation based on negative, limiting or incorrect and corrupted beliefs, you will start to believe in the lie of your apparent guilt. And once you believe you are guilty you will ultimately punish and sabotage yourself over and over again until you wake up to the fact by identifying the negative and destructive pattern. Awareness is key, for only then can the issue be healed and self-forgiveness can begin.
We mortal beings learn through “mistakes,” trial and error. The biggest mistake is if and when we fail to learn from them. To condemn someone to the hellfire for a mistake, particularly if it is a redeemable mistake is something only an evil and unjust force would dictate. Define “sin.” It varies from religion to religion depending on how fanatical and fundamentalist it is. Check in with yourself. Does the dictates of your religion attach ‘sin’ and or guilt to actions, behaviours or even thoughts that don’t actually cause any harm to anybody or their possessions? Is your own conscience and natural law not enough to keep you in check? One does not have to believe in karma or the law of cause and effect in order to reap the consequences of cause and effect or jump off a cliff in order to prove that gravity is in effect. And yet apparently one has to believe in the dictates of another mere mortal and accept him as the controller and intermediary in order to feel and be closer to God or earn their place in heaven.
Religion attaches guilt to sex in a way that creates sexual dysfunction. When you grow up with a sexual stigma attached to premarital sex, that guilt and stigma does not suddenly leave your psyche the moment you get married. Sexual and spiritual energy are closely connected. Oppress sexual energy and you also oppress spiritual energy and your connection to self, soul and creation itself. The oppression of one or both undermines self-esteem and disconnects you from your soul which is your wise inner guide. The founders of religion know this and use this knowledge against their loyal followers in order to gain and maintain power and control.
Ironically in Muslim practicing countries in which the woman are severely oppressed and made to wear berka, rape is astoundingly high in comparison to sexually freer countries and it is the victim that is punished for the crime under Sharia law. Sexual oppression turns men into stark raving lunatics who go on to rape and murder, which partly explains why many Catholic Priests are convicted pedophiles.
Religion plays a huge role in keeping people disempowered and disconnected from their inner wisdom and divine nature and therefore the religious will never become self- actualised masters as their beloved Christ. Religious founded beliefs and ideologies continue to have a massive influence throughout society and affect and infect the whole population regardless of whether they go to church or not. Few church goers have ever researched or studied the history of their religion. Catholic schools certainly don’t teach about their own ruthless bloody history in which their Pope’s led their worshippers on numerous crusades through the centuries in which millions were slaughtered and massacred in the name of their evil GoD. Spell it backwards and what you get is(DoG.)
The origin of the word ‘religion’ lies in the Latin word ligare, to bind. … fourth century, opted for religare, a verb meaning “to fasten or bind. To declare “I am a devout Christian,” as many do as though it is a badge of honour that somehow makes them a good person and “superior” to others is to inadvertently admit to those who are not religious indoctrinated that you are in fact brainwashed, bound – a slave to a patriarchal, statist dictatorship which gained its power and control through thousands of years of violence and fear porn. All of the 30,000 + registered religions claim to be the one true faith and have all of the answers, yet each and every one of them were founded on a similar version of the others and for the same desire for power, control and money. It is the same thing recycled and repackaged; the choice being only an illusion.
Negative and Contradictive Beliefs
Notice in the word “belief” there is a lie. Much of what you think you know is wrong. The psychopathic controllers of the world have infiltrated and/or founded every organisation and institution there is and in order to maintain their control they have withheld enormous amounts of knowledge from the masses, manipulated information and spread disinformation because knowledge is power and by withholding and twisting it they keep the balance of power dynamic in their favour and the masses enslaved to their systems of control and dictatorships.
With the advent of the internet however, you now have access to just about everything there is to know, though no one will ever know everything and you have to weed through volumes of information in order to separate fact from fiction. Truth is often stranger than fiction and can further complicate investigation and confuse seekers of truth because ‘conspiracy’ is a touchy word. Extensive research however can reveal just how deceptive those in power are and how they have lied about everything from history to medicine. You may think that you had an education at school and in college. But the truth is you had an “ indoctrination” and simply learnt to memorise and parrot lines. Like with religion, critical thinking, inquisitiveness and questioning is not encouraged in school and may even attract a scolding or punishment. Why is it that institutions that claim to have all of the answers don’t allow any questions?
The education system is geared towards left brain orientation, the male side. However, not everybody is left brain orientated. Creative types for example are more right brain orientated and learn in a completely different way to left brain orientated people. The education system does not accommodate the difference as it has a “one shoe fits all” policy. Unfortunately the right brain orientated kids who (if the truth be known) often have above average I.Q’s, get bored and frustrated with school, frequently end up being branded and banished to the naughty corner. Those are the kids that often skip massive chunks of school and leave early with bad grades. School was a prison to them and once they finally got to escape they were far better off in the long run because the indoctrination had less of an impact on them. (Pink Floyd’s hit song “Another Brick in the Wall,” precisely addressed the dark cynicism of ‘thought control’ and mind imprisonment carried out through the education system.) Diagnosed ADHD or branded as failures many take this to heart and continue to lug around the labels maybe for the rest of their lives.
This is a perfect example as to how we acquire negative belief patterns, programming and conditioning. Repetitive reinforcement of words, which are (spell)ings can and do literally cast spells on you. Called a ‘loser’ many times over and you wind up believing it. Once the belief is firmly ingrained, you act out on your feelings and the outside world then responds with endless reinforcement by reflecting your beliefs back at you and maybe even repeating the word, ‘Loser.’
Contradictive beliefs are to have two opposing beliefs operating simultaneously. For example, you may have a stigma type belief like, “I’m insane,” that became ingrained through being called that repetitively. On the contrary, part of you be it your inner wisdom perhaps, doesn’t truly believe that you are insane. When contradictory beliefs are operating, usually on a subconscious level it in turn creates a mental schism and/or an inner battle between the different aspects of self, e.g. ego v’s heart. You could quite literally be at war within yourself. A mental schism is to have an imbalance between the left (masculine intellect) and right (feminine intuitive) sides of the brain.
To quote the closing scene words of the character named Chris played by Charlie Sheen in the movie Platoon who said, “I think now looking back, we did not fight the enemy. We fought ourselves and the enemy was in us.”
If you are seeking peace in your life then you must first be at peace with yourself and that means being self-loving. Peace can never be achieved or restored by fighting for it because “peace” and “fight” are directly opposed.
We live in a very contradictory world filled with contradictory messages, double speak and standards. It isn’t any wonder people are confused and don’t know the difference between right and wrong. Even the bible is filled with contradiction. There’s the commandment, “Thou shalt not kill.’ But in the Old Testament the God depicted, ordered the people to stone to death the sorcerers and astrologers. To this day many an ignoramus still believes astrology is evil or irrelevant without having ever studied the topic and discovering the connection and use of it throughout the bible and religion. There is a very good reason why astrology has been given a bad rap and it’s all about controlling knowledge for the sake of maintaining power. Ironically the hat (called a “mitre,” a tall, folded hat with a top that looks like a fish’s mouth) worn by the Pope is symbolic of the zodiac sign Pisces. In the year and at the time of Christs’ birth a rare astrological event occurred. It was a triple conjunction between Jupiter and Saturn in the sign of Pisces which only occurs every 900 years. Predicting the alignment heralded the birth of a new King, a group of Persian astrologers guided by the stars set off on a long journey to Bethlehem. The astrologers otherwise known as The Magi also referred to as the (Three) Wise Men or (Three) Kings, visited Jesus after his birth, bearing gifts of gold, frankincense and myrrh.
The hierarchy of the Catholic church, along with most other official authorities and people in power are very well educated in astrology or they hire the services of astrologers to advise them. Accordingly many global events are orchestrated and timed according to astrology and numerology. From where do you think the annual calendar originates? Astrology and numerology are psychological empowerment tools each of us can use in order to reach knowledge and understanding of self. Astrology can be used for good or evil purposes and against those who are ignorant of the fact. This however does not make the study, knowledge and use of astrology evil. It merely makes the abuser of the knowledge and power and tool evil.
Parents hit their kids and tell them they did it because they love them. Well pedophiles justify their crimes too by telling their victims the same thing. Everything is upside down and back to front. As it currently stands those who commit the biggest crimes against humanity through war, supplying drugs (including the toxic legal ones) steal resources, property, rights and freedoms and even peoples souls, are the same ones who are obscenely rewarded, whilst the truly moral Good Samaritans of the world go unnoticed and are used, abused, trodden all over and even assassinated.
Contradictory and negative belief patterns reap havoc in your life and keeps self-esteem levels at a low. The first port of call in resolving this is to weed out the negative. Pay attention to what other people say to you. If they say you have just made a contradictory statement then assess and acknowledge it. Awareness is key, only then can you do something about it. Energy work such as kinesiology and EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) are highly recommended for working with negative and contradictory belief patterns.
Humanity as a whole has been traumatised through thousands of years of abuse, war, religion, sick ideologies, oppression, slavery, starvation, poverty and countless barbaric acts that continue to be wielded by the evil and destructive dark forces.
Whether one believes in reincarnation or not, trauma and memories are also inherited and stored at a cellular level. Energy sensitive and conscious practitioners can and do see or sense in others, everything from past physical wounds to psychological and spiritual trauma. Whilst the physical wound may have healed, the trauma related to it lingers on in the energy field and can be triggered for as long as the trauma itself remains unhealed. Therefore there is not a single living soul who is not carrying some degree of trauma within their psyche. Most however are unaware of or have literally lost all memory of traumatic ordeals.
Though it is generally a welcomed and celebrated experience, being born is a traumatic ordeal for both the child and the mother. The trauma experienced is quickly forgotten and life goes on. However, untreated and unhealed trauma is easily triggered through reminders. For example; in the past you were subjected to some form of violence. Every time there is even the slightest threat of violence or a violent story is heard the unhealed trauma is triggered, which in turn causes a reaction that can seem irrational and unexplainable to the unaware.
Reaching for the nearest bottle of vodka or a “quick fix” happy pill as a means to coping is not only unhealthy and unwise but detrimental to resolving trauma. It has the same effect as pouring fuel on a fire in an attempt to put the fire out. Makes no sense what-so-ever and yet this is exactly how the mainstream culture attempts in vain to cope and deal with their trauma and issues. The holistic approach is to seek and use one of the numerous therapies or modalities that are not only healing at a core level but are also empowering of the whole self. Many of these modalities can easily be learned for treating oneself which is highly recommended for even greater self-empowerment.
Competing and Comparing Oneself to Others
“Haters don’t really hate you, they hate themselves because you are a reflection of what they wish to be.” – Anonymous
“If you care what other people think, you will always be their prisoner.”- Lao Tzu
Someone once said, “The most beautiful woman in the room is often the loneliest woman of all.” Of course no one would believe this except for the one experiencing it. The opposite sex are intimidated by her, prey on her like drooling hyenas or compete for her like a trophy in a sport, whilst other females are threatened by her and frequently attack her with their jealous wrath. Think again before wishing to trade places with her.
A survey conducted in Australia among the nations’ most successful, wealthiest business people revealed one common theme. Each one achieved their success against all condemnation from other people in their lives who called them idiots and told them to get a real job. These success stories are about people who went against the grain and simply followed their passion in life, regardless of what others thought of them, a courageous feat.
Aussie actress come singer / song writer Kylie Minogue was subjected to one of the most vicious and ruthless public smear and ‘hate’ campaigns ever as she rose to international stardom. A low life scumbag profited at her expense through producing “I hate Kylie,” merchandise and it seemed the whole country was on the bandwagon. However the “haters” were silenced and evaporated once Kylie made it big in the UK and suddenly Kylie’s popularity in Australia was on the upswing with everybody bidding for a piece of her.
Those who have the time and inclination to judge and condemn others for that which they don’t have themselves also have no guts and therefore no glory will ever come to them. If you aren’t doing and accomplishing something you can be proud of with your life then don’t expect to ever be empowered with self-esteem.
Idolizing and worshipping others
The moment you idolize or worship someone else, be it your lover, celebrities, the Queen, a deity, Christ or make the acquisition of things like money, fame, status or a job the higher priority in your life you devalue your sacred self and throw away your personal power. It is not unlike a form of Stockholm syndrome, defined as capture-bonding. Stockholm syndrome is a psychological phenomenon in which hostages express empathy and sympathy and have positive feelings toward their captors, sometimes to the point of defending and identifying with the captors.
Celebrities, sports stars, royalty, presidents and the Pope, literally capture the attention and energy of their worshippers and hold them spellbound. Their mere presence sends those worshippers who have no sense of self into idealisation projection that feeds and fuels the sensationalism, hysteria and ultimately the idols power and influence. If only these foolish souls knew who and what they are actually worshipping they might think twice about throwing their power away. The fact of the matter is you cannot possibly know if your idol is worthy of your adulation when you don’t personally know him or her. Royal devotees appear mindless to the fact that these blue blooded parasites gained their privileged positions solely through incarnating into the bloodline which gained its ruling power and wealth through centuries of invasion, genocide and theft. They ordered the most heinous of crimes and destruction against millions of the world’s population and in return the insane masses worship them – their evil masters. Never consider that the Queens golden carriage alone worth billions could feed and house those millions who are homeless and starving to death around the world every day. No, instead the stupid ignorant slaves waste their hard earned money on buying a royal souvenir adding to the obscenely overflowing royal coffers.
Incidentally the one royal Princess Diana who was a humanitarian like JFK were conveniently assassinated for blowing the whistle on the psychopathic ruling class and for attempting to expose and counteract their evil doings. Of course mindless sleep walkers accept the lie in the belief of the official versions of their deaths regardless of the fact that the official versions were full of holes and steeped in propaganda. Recently deceased former forensic investigator John Morgan wrote eleven books during the last decade of his life dedicated to the most extensive body of evidence gathering and exposing the truth of Diana’s assassination. In the fifth of the eleven books John provides conclusive evidence that the Queen personally ordered MI6 to murder Diana. A documentary based on John’s investigation of Di and Dodi’s murders “Unlawful Killing” can be viewed on You Tube.
Diet and Exercise
Balanced health and wellbeing is dependent on the vitality of body, mind, heart and soul. One cannot possibly neglect one or the other and expect to have high levels of self-esteem as each aspect of oneself is connected. You cannot loll around like a sloth, fill your body with toxic, GMO Frankenstein food-like garbage and expect to feel good about yourself or be healthy of mind and body.
Once again there is much contradictory and disinformation out there in regards to diet together with retarded regulation that further confuses and misleads the consumer. Often times what you may think is healthy is not at all. For example Soy milk – contains 35 milligrams of Phyto Oestrogen… This is equal to 10 contraceptive pills per litre. Soy products have been linked to causing aggressive and erratic behaviour in the consumer as they interfere with and imbalance hormones.
(Ref source: Dr. William Wong, ND, PhD) http://www.naturalhealthpodcasts.com/index.html
A good rule of thumb is to seek moderation in everything, eat organic grown whole food, distil all drinking water and avoid packaged and processed food and sugar. This will automatically eliminate cravings, allergies, reduce hunger, detox the system, restore vitamin and mineral deficiencies, which is the cause of most illness and disease. Seek to build a strong, balanced immune system.
Eat when you are hungry and without guilt when on a natural, organic diet, whether that is grazing all day or eating 3 or 5 smaller meals a day. Tune in and listen to the wisdom of your own body as it knows best what fuel it needs. Everybody is different and therefore have different requirements. Choose a sport or exercise that you enjoy and will be motivated to do and stick to.
Address the underlying cause of obesity or other eating disorders – all of which are a sign of a compromised self-esteem. Someone with a healthy level of self-esteem would never allow them-self to become obese or anorexic. Comfort eating is often triggered through having been abused and or neglected. You quite literally pile on the padding as a subconscious attempt to protect yourself or fill yourself up with what is lacking on an emotional and/or physical level.
Those who are disconnected from source energy and have little if no power of their own (which is the majority of the world) steal energy and power from others through role playing in the dynamics of intimidators, interrogators, poor me’ and the aloof. Intimidators create the “poor me” type in others and vice versa. Interrogators create the aloof type in others and vice versa. These dynamics are at the core of all power struggles which is ultimately the core issue of all dysfunctional and challenging relationships. The role plays are often interchanged according to who one is dealing with at a given moment.
For example; a secretive “closed book” type personality is aloof with his wife which in turn drives her to make like an interrogator in order to drag some kind of response out of him. The more she is forced to work for a response, the more aloof and defensive he becomes. Out of sheer frustration she then resorts to intimidation and in turn he takes on the “poor me” dynamic. With his children however he might play the interrogator and intimidator roles.
Life would be so much easier sometimes if we didn’t have to deal with other people. But if you are dealing with difficult and challenging people all of the time who undermine your self-esteem and leave you feeling drained and worthless then it is time for you to be the one to wise up and change. To remain stuck in an unhealthy relationship is like being in a leaky boat. You are so busy bailing the water out but for as long as you fail to plug the hole you are still going to sink. So when is it time to bail?
If you have tried everything to no avail, feel frustrated and like you’re banging your head against a brick wall, then the only relief you are going to get is when you quit. It takes two healthy people who love, honour and respect themselves in order to have a healthy relationship. Sadly the world has produced few positive examples of truly happy and healthy couples. The majority of couples not only hook up with one another for all of the wrong reasons but also stay with each other for all of the wrong reasons. Instead of looking for compatibility of mind, body, heart and soul or mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually they choose their partner based on ‘things’ like status, income, religion, age, neediness, expectation, whimsical idealistic dreams, impulsive attraction, fears of loneliness, desires for children and visions of happily ever after’s. The security and material stability of the relationship may be good, but if the sex and actual emotional and spiritual connection leaves a lot to be desired then there will always be a feeling of emptiness and a yearning for that which is missing.
Few of us actually have high enough self-esteem and worth to command the highest love ideal with an equal. And fewer still actually meet their equal as a teen or in their younger years. For most it takes numerous relationships, much trial and error, growing and developing of self before one is ready for the big love. In fact it is in doing the Great work on developing oneself that one may eventually discover and be rewarded with meeting “the one.” For numerous reasons many won’t – not in this lifetime.
Programming and conditioning interferes with relationships and it can cause great fears for those who have been manipulated by it when they find themselves attracted to somebody who doesn’t ‘fit’ into the mould of the status quo. And yet it is those who do and can conquer the fear and free themselves of the limiting belief systems that are more likely to experience the higher love paradigm. Challenges involving age difference, religious preference, race, geography and culture are just that, challenges, which true love will endure and overcome. Fear is the opposite of love. Fear of love and intimacy causes many to run from the very thing their heart most desires. True love is a choice and is to have the ability to love first the self and only then the ability to love another. To love is to be the harbinger of authenticity, knowledge and truth which equates to higher consciousness and empowerment.
As part of the New World order and depopulation agendas, the psychopaths engineered and funded the feminist movement which has evolved into the feminazi movement. This sinister agenda together with eugenics is geared to emancipate the males, render them sterile, useless, docile and redundant.
The resulting raging battle between the genders has caused a divide between us along with the family unit – just as was planned and intended.
Let’s get real here, male or female we are all human with needs and both genders serve a greater purpose to the whole. Males wouldn’t exist without their mums and woman wouldn’t have most everything they use and own without the males who invented, designed and built them.
Patriarchal, feminazi, hierarchy – It’s time to evolve from all of this bullshit, grow up and wise up as that old tune has outlived its expiry date and brought nothing but misery to the world. Start to respect, honour and value our differences in gender, race & cultures rather than turning those differences into a battlefield and we can all start living in peace as one loving force.
Sometimes true love and compassion requires the kind of tough love type of compassion that kicks ass and takes names. You may love another but insist on loving yourself more. If a relationship comes with a hefty price tag attached and you are tolerating the intolerable, ask yourself if the relationship is worth it. And be sure to critically assess yourself before you go kicking the wrong arse.
Projecting your own weaknesses onto somebody else thereby failing to be accountable for your own issues, will only serve to keep a negative pattern in motion and for as long as that pattern is active you will continue to attract and be attracted to those who mirror your weakness, usually in a way that isn’t so obvious to you
Leaping headlong from one relationship to the next only to experience the same shit with a different face under different circumstances is a sure fire sign that you have a negative pattern to break. Afterall, the one thing your string of ex’s had in common – is you.
Dead end jobs and material greed.
It’s a job and having one in our current economic climate may be a luxury in many ways that many others don’t have. It puts food on the table and pays your bills, but does it come at a price? Once again there are few truly happy and healthy examples of people in this world who love what they are doing and do what they are doing in a healthy and balanced way. Health is the first wealth. People sacrifice their health for the wealth and then try to use the wealth to buy back their health only to find that they can’t. Others sell themselves short as a means to survival, make their work their highest priority at the expense of everything and everyone else in their lives, or even sell their souls for the sake of an income.
You are not your job and you were not put on this earth in order to battle for survival or to accumulate and hoard “things”. And yet our corrupted culture and the systems that create it have reduced us to a dog eat dog society in which we are terrorised and feared into the scarcity mentality, whilst at the same time are manipulated into being a mindless consumer of everything you can get your hands on. There are multi-millionaires in this world who cry poor, billionaires who share little if anything of their wealth with the other 99% of the world who are scrapping over only half of the entire worlds wealth.
This sickness will continue to thrive for as long as the masses remain asleep and oblivious to the illusions and falsities of the psychopathic mentality that manipulates them into being robotic like dupes. Wealth never did come with a guarantee of happiness. Wealth, power, fame and fortune acquired at the expense of everyone and everything else is a recipe destined for disaster. Pay attention and watch the newly elected world leaders turn grey and literally age overnight, notice how politicians’ mouths droop at the corners making them look angry and miserable, think about the premature deaths of superstars like Elvis. The list is very long for those who seemingly had it all but died prematurely through self- destructive means.
The Purpose and your Mission in Life
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. – Marianne Williamson
What is the point of being alive if you don’t at least try to do something remarkable? – John Green
Ultimately your purpose and mission in life is to wake up and evolve into higher consciousness. This means utilising more than a pea size amount of your brain – the ego, fearful primitive reptilian part of the brain that operates in an animalistic instinctive nature only. Ignorance is to dwell in dark places in a stunted capacity. At its worst ignorance destroys and kills. Expanding and freeing your mind of toxic and limiting belief systems, negative patterns, programing and brain washing in order for you to reach your higher conscious awareness is by contrast to be in and of the light. Knowledge = light = love. Those with the power of knowledge, with the capacity to fully love and the integrity to hold true to the light, have no such desire to rule over and control others. They understand that in harming another one ultimately harms oneself.
Conscious awareness means growing into being an empowered individual with a mind of your own and having a fearless, cavalier approach to life rather than degenerating into the collective conscious along with the masses of mindless sheep who wind up wasting an entire lifetime on meaningless pursuits. It requires your making a decisive choice and exercising your free will to do the Great work which just so happens to be both the most important and challenging work of all. This work is not accomplished by the faint of heart. For it requires the heart and courage equal to that of a lion. This is the work of prophets, visionaries, wayshowers, seers, sages, revolutionaries, mavericks, pioneers – the ultimate leaders and warriors who strive to transend the darkness in order to see the light and reach the level of self-mastery and higher conscious awareness.
This is painful and challenging work because the pursuit of mastery brings about transformation (within and outwardly in your life) and causes the destruction and death of all of the lies, illusions, beliefs, ideals and fantasies that you only think are true and real. Anything which isn’t authentic and in alignment with your true self, nature and purpose is consequently destroyed.
To be undertaking the Great work is to be on a journey fraught with opposition, endless obstacles and challenges. There are few if any rewards but many gruelling initiations, tests, struggles, sacrifices and dangers to confront. Few dare to embark and venture on this journey and yet eventually whether in this life time the next or the one after that, each and every soul must complete the lessons and pass the unavoidable tests in order to evolve and ascend into the next dimension – the next level of consciousness and ones higher potential.
The Big Picture
Humanity is now standing at the cross roads of two potential realities. The psychopaths intend to plunge the world back into the dark ages – a period in which humanities level of consciousness had fallen so low that the masses were literally living in the dark, void of education, knowledge and power. Life was brutal and short lived. As with the cycles of the seasons, life and death, our consciousness is subject to processions and declines. Currently we are in a procession cycle and headed into the Golden Age which coincides with the Age of Aquarius. It is in the golden age that humanities consciousness will be elevated to unlimited potential with all possibilities experienced as the norm.
The psychopathic control freaks of the world are well aware of where humanity is at in our evolution and it is because of this progression cycle of higher consciousness and unlimited potential that they are working overtime to prevent. Think about just how much we could achieve in this world if we were not consistently restrained and subjected to endless government controls on everything we do, the extortion, waste and plunder of our resources. They are so insane that they actually do think that they can beat and control nature and natural evolution and worse, they think they can achieve this without dire consequence. They are giving it their best shot too and in the process they have put the whole planet in jeopardy.
Psychopaths are by nature destructive destroyers, so what do they care? If the truth be known they are also the most fearful of all. Control freaks like all brutes are no different to frightened little animals. They may hide behind scary masks, power trips and control tactics, but beneath the cloak is really a very vulnerable beast, one that has more than everybody else to lose. The more power and wealth you have the harder the fall when you lose it. And the more educated and informed the masses become, the faster they are going to wake up to the psychopaths and their evil agendas. And that is the psychopaths greatest fear, biggest vulnerability and weakness.
For as long as the masses continue to ignore reality, deny the pervading existence of the evil, is acquiescent with corruption, complicit with abuses, the New Age theorists think they are going to be rescued by benevolent aliens and the religious continue to sit around waiting in vain for their savior Christ to return, the greater the odds of survival will be stacked against you.
Think about it. Christians have been waiting in vain for two thousand years for Christs’ return. In the meantime hundreds of generations have come and gone and millions have been slaughtered along the way. A rational mind would have accepted the error in his belief system eons ago. It is not a “being” that you need to come save you, rather it is the Christ consciousness that is eluding you.
Christ = Sun = Light = Consciousness = knowledge = Truth = Love.
Conscious beings live by a code of ethics and the moral standards as set by Christ. They lead by example, as did Christ. They are by initiation and virtue masters of self. Self mastery is achieved through breaking out of the chains of bondage and slavery and embracing the authentic self.
Every day in every way we are faced with choices. The choices we make now are creating our future experience. Therefore if we hope to enjoy a prosperous future founded on love, peace and freedom, then each and every one of us must take the responsibility to consciously create this from the foundation of a healthy and balanced self esteem.
We must take daily action to avoid the numerous death traps the psychopaths have set for us,(i.e. toxic food, water, EMF) empower our minds, spirit and bodies with healthy, organic foods in order to keep our immune systems working at peak performance.
Conscious Individuals empowered with healthy levels of self esteem are subservient to no one. They do not need guru’s or accept “masters” as they are their own guru and master, are in control of themselves and their own journey through life. They do not accept any kind of abuse from anyone or bow to those who claim to be the authority or the law with the powers of god to do as they please. Those who are driven to control and rule over everybody else are totally out of control themselves. They are maniacs whose judgement cannot be trusted. They trust no-one, not even themselves.
Love is ultimately both the answer and the solution to reclaiming our power, saving ourselves and our world from imminent destruction. Veering off the course of destruction both self and other imposed IS the way to then be free to create the alternative world which will actually be worth living in. It all starts with self love, knowledge and respect. We will reach the pivotal turning point when enough of us are actually choosing to feed the good wolf within, are self loving and therefore value and respect all life forms including our planet which provides all of the resources to sustain us.
In essence we are all spiritual beings having a human experience – one that we are still learning to orientate and master. Both our spiritual and material form are as valuable as the other. You cannot deny one aspect in favour of the other and expect to be a whole and complete person. Harnessing the energy of both together is key to full empowerment.
In the lead up to December 21st 2012 marking the end of the Mayan calendar, the dark forces fuelled the fear of death in the masses through spreading ‘end times’ doomsday messages throughout the media and entertainment networks. As is always the case whenever the dark forces wish to create a divide, diversion and distraction amoungst the masses, they resort to their weapon of fear to invoke the lower energy frequency. The Fear frequency is the opposite of love being the higher energy frequency. Those who buy into the fear propaganda remain trapped in this lower energy vibration, are immediately dis-empowered and disconnected from the wisdom of their intuition and higher conscious. In truth December 21st 2012 should have been a day of celebration on a global scale, for it marked the beginning of the end of the 2000+ year long Age of pisceas, the reign of the controlling oligarchs, their systems of power and control and the end of the dark age which occurred in the Iron Yuga cycle.
During the Iron Yuga cycle humanities consciousness fell to 25% capacity due to the sun and Sirius (which directly affects the consciousness of humankind) orbiting at their furthermost distance from one another. The sun and Sirius are now headed back through this cycle that has taken thousands of years to complete. Sirius’s transit has sped up as it now races back towards the sun and through the Bronze Yuga. If it seems time has sped up, that is literally the Sirius affect on consciousness at work. In being that much closer to the sun, Sirius is elevating our consciousness level to 50%. In the following silver yuga, consciousness will be restored to 75% capacity followed by 100% in the golden age.
Like awaking from a very long sleep in the dark – a nightmare really when one considers that the most bloodiest of warfare and hatred has occurred during the Pisces iron age, the masses are now awakening at lightening speed and not soon enough for those who are already awake. Other rare and powerful planetary transits, such as the 7 Uranus/Pluto squares have been assisting with this mass awakening and transformation process. If in your personal astrological natal chart you have planets between 5 to 15 degrees in the signs of Capricorn and Aries or their opposite signs Cancer and Libra it is likely that you strongly felt the affects of these Uranus pluto squares in at least one area of your life. For some the transits have brought a complete destruction of their former lifestyle, relationships etc which may have been rather traumatizing. It will take some time yet to recover and rebuild as you may feel that you have been wiped out by a hurricane.
Of course there will always be the degenerates, those who willfully refuse to wake up. Many are actually brain damaged and are beyond help. Those who are unable to adjust to the higher energy vibrations that are now raising the frequency of our planet will perish as they continue to subject themselves to the toxic overload of poisons etc and fail to take preventative action to neutrilize the damage being done.
The dark forces are not about to let go of the power and control of their own accord. Rather they will fight to the bitter end in order to maintain their stance and it is this that continues to play out around the globe on a grand scale right now as they have amped up their endevours and are utilising every weapon at their disposal in their attempts to keep us from waking up and evolving to the higher level of consciousness. They are doomed to fail however since nature is and always will be more powerful than the predators who arrogantly think they are immune to the repercussions of their own weaknesses and self-destruction.
We can all play a part in defeating the evil and the injustices of the world by taking our power back, realising the truth and potential of this power. It all begins with you, overcoming the limitations of your victim mentality, your fears and becoming a rebel with a meaningful cause which has implications expanding well beyond yourself.
Know thy enemy and the weapons they use. Hit them where it hurts economically. Stop funding their corporations and poisoning yourself with their products. Support local small business and farmers markets. If any still exist in your area, know that they are struggling to survive endless government regulations and fierce competition with greedy corporations. Go back to basics, start growing your own organic produce. Share excess with neighbors with the aim to rebuild the community spirit of giving,
invest in a distiller for the purest form of drinking water, use chemical free personal products, turn off the tellievision and start filling your head with quality brain food, consider casting a vote of no confidence at your next election. Use a pen to draw a line through all candidate boxes and write “no confidence in any candidate.” Do your research before donating to charity. Many charities have been set up by the parasites as a means of tax evasion, money laundering and purely as yet another means to screw you of your cash.
Join the worldwide network of activists for support and use your own unique expression, talents and gifts to expose the dark forces and their agenda’s. Share what you learn and know with everyone you associate with. Two years ago you might have been given that strange look on mentioning the depopulation agenda or stating that 911 was an inside job. Today however only the willfully ignorant sleepwalkers are, to their own detriment on the path to oblivion. Let them go on their merry way and don’t waste your time and energy on them or the many energy vampires and dupes who are continuing to serve the dark forces, cause distractions and division. You have purpose and a mission to fullfil, so get to it.
© Dee Coote
Holistic Counsellor & Shaman