Month: April 2016

Self Esteem – The Key to Empowerment

Maintaining self-esteem is like keeping a bank account. Make too many withdrawals and not enough deposits and you soon deplete it. To be lacking in self-esteem is to be in a very dire situation. Much like being up shit creek without a paddle.

Low or non existent self-esteem can and often does lead to one making poor choices in life that in turn can set off a chain of disastrous consequences for as long as the core issue of  self-esteem fails to be addressed.

Charlotte Dawson’s Story

Charlotte Dawson, an Australian TV celebrity suicided at age 47 in February 2014. Prior to her death Charlotte had publically admitted to suffering depression for over a decade, which she connected to the abortion she’d had 15 years earlier. In 1999 Charlotte married Olympic swimmer Scott Miller one year prior to the Summer Olympics being held in Sydney.

The newlyweds were considered to be one of the most glamorous celebrity couples in Sydney at that time. Soon after the marriage Charlotte was pregnant with her first, and as it turns out, only child she ever conceived.

She wrote in her autobiography: “Scott was not supportive of the pregnancy because the due date clashed with the Olympics. Everything Scott had done was leading up to this moment and nothing could stand in his way, so it was decided that we would terminate the pregnancy and try again later. Inside I was in total turmoil. I wanted the baby. How long would we have to wait? Were there any guarantees that I would fall pregnant again? Of course, I accepted without question that the Olympics was Scott’s number-one priority. He had told me that as did a number of invested parties.”

Things went from bad to worse for Charlotte when her husband refused to stay with her in the abortion clinic. He couldn’t cope with the atmosphere and left her there alone. “It was a horrible, sad time for me,” Charlotte reported, “but I had to keep reminding myself of what I had. I had a husband, and we were building a life and a home together. I wanted our baby, but I felt greedy, like I already had too much, that the termination was a compromise I should make.”

Charlotte revealed in her autobiography that she had been adopted at birth and sexually abused as a child. Her sacrifice of her only child for the sake of her husband’s Olympic career failed dismally. Sex tapes emerged around this time of Miller being filmed committing adultery with a female swimmer. He was also caught on tape doping to enhance his performance. Scott failed to make the team for the Sydney Olympics.

Her husband’s betrayal added even more devastation to the already shattered Dawson.
“If I’d started to feel pangs of depression after the termination, the shock of receiving this news barely six months into my marriage was too much to bear. Something inside me completely broke that Sunday, something that is beyond repair, something that has never come back. I was a broken mess. I had to pretend that nothing was wrong at work and at social functions while people were whispering behind my back… It was around this time that I learned the gentle art of drowning my sorrows with bucket loads of wine.

In observing with deeper insight in to the human condition and in having the ability to discern in an objective capacity, we clearly see the links, join the dots and connect Charlotte’s whole story to her compromised self-esteem. She had been abandoned at birth, abused as a child and didn’t feel she deserved to have it all, so she sacrificed her own hearts-desire for a baby and allowed herself to be set up in an unfair competition with  her husbands’ career, which only led to a series of traumatic events. Charlotte attempted to conceal and repress her pain and trauma through medicating herself with alcohol – a depressant and extremely unhealthy means to coping, which only perpetuated her existing depression, further undermined her self-esteem and sense of worth and in turn ended in the horrific and tragic taking of her own life.

Regardless of the circumstances and events that made up the theme of Charlotte’s story the underlying and most often untold version of the story is experienced in countless ways the world over and rarely is the root cause that leads to the traumatic affects ever identified that alone acknowledged, addressed and healed. As a result we live in a world full of very traumatised and untreated sick people who only continue to add insult to injury through destructive patterns of behaviour and making irrational choices. Einstein’s definition of “insanity”- Doing the same thing over again and expecting a different result.

Self-esteem test – Stand naked in front of the mirror and admire your beautiful reflection. Can you do it? Can you tell yourself, “I love you,” without hesitation, cringing, kidding yourself, criticizing, nit picking or feeling incredibly uncomfortable? The point of the exercise is not about egotistic vanity or “perfection”. It is about loving yourself regardless of your flaws and mistakes, seeing more qualities than flaws. It is about loving who you are on a much deeper than physical level. If you cannot love, honour, value and approve of yourself just as you are, how can you expect anybody else to?

To be void of or to have low esteem and self-worth is to have little or a total lack of self-love, respect, honour, value, confidence, self-control and a host of other positive and vitally important qualities. Without  high levels of self-esteem one can only ever expect to find themselves engaged in a constant  battle with life, other people and most of all with self, for it is self-esteem that is the foundation of your entire wellbeing, spirit and energy. Self-loathing is by contrast the opposite extreme of self-esteem and ones greatest enemy.

Conscience is indeed linked to your self-esteem together with your thoughts, feelings, emotions, attitudes, beliefs and behaviour. Unless you were born a psychopath lacking conscience, it acts as the ultimate filter and deciphers whether or not a deposit is made into your self- esteem account or withdrawn.

Whilst the statistics of born psychopaths is said to be quite a low percentage of the population, the number of “secondary” psychopaths, sociopaths and narcissists is much higher and on the rise. These people were born with their conscience in tack, but it can be and is programmed out of the conscious of humanity through sinister mind control techniques and conditioning. The programming and conditioning may begin at birth if a child has a psychopath or narcissist parent, though not all of these offspring will take on the traits of the parent. Some will take the opposite route. However in taking the opposite route these people will have a victim pattern ingrained and will more than likely continue to attract psychopaths, sociopaths and narcissists into his/her life unless the pattern is broken and healed.

Others are programmed and conditioned into psychopathic and narcissistic behaviour through the influences of TV (it’s called programming for a reason) media including social media, entertainment, New Age religion, books, social and peer pressure and the general culture of a society.

Psychopaths are insane that is for sure. They can also be highly intelligent, but only on the ego level. Wisdom, rationale, common sense, logic, feeling and emotional intelligence are all lacking in these individuals, though they can be very good at mimicking and feigning these attributes.

Ruthless and cunning psychopaths are also well skilled in manipulation and influencing others to become just like them. In fact millions if not billions of others are influenced by psychopaths because psychopaths most often tend to hold all of the important positions of power and leadership. E.g. Government, religion, media, medicine, finance, science, entertainment and law enforcement, indeed all human welfare and environmental interests and organisations.

Contrary to popular belief psychopaths are not all housed in or destined for prison and mental asylums. A good majority of them are very much in the public eye, have been for years and continue to be free to carry out their worst evil acts and destruction outside the confines of barbed wire and brick walls and often they do this in plain sight. Also contrary to popular belief, psychopaths don’t necessarily look like the loony down the street or the vision that is conjured up in one’s mind of an axe murderer.  It is actually more apt to liken a psychopath to the one you would least suspect of a heinous crime or the vampires depicted in the movies; charming, handsome and alluring…

The conscience plays a very important and significant role in the level of one’s self –esteem because if and when you ignore or repress your conscience, which is very much a guiding force in your life to be reckoned with, you will inadvertently undermine your self-esteem and self-worth. Furthermore your conscience is linked to the highest law that governs humanity and nature itself. This law is known as ‘universal’ or ‘natural law.’ Common law, constitutional law and even the ten commandments of the bible were written upon ‘natural law.’ There exists’ many separate laws within natural law that rules over and governs creation such as Gravity, Karma, Attraction, Free Will and the cycles of life. In further defining what natural law is consider this, “Do no harm.” Any act carried out against the wellbeing, health, life or property of another or inflicted even against oneself,is subject to the natural law of consequence.

Unfortunately and all too often as children we either didn’t learn about consequence at all or were taught it through harmful and destructive means like being beaten, cursed, yelled at, humiliated and berated. Few parents “think” of the “consequences” of treating children in such a manner, how they undermine the self-esteem and worth of a child and how this barbaric behaviour in turn teaches and influences kids to either grow up to do exactly the same thing to their own kids or in some cases, to be the exact opposite of their parents and go on to raise unruly kids who have little if no concept of consequences.

Tips and guidance for affective parenting techniques that teach ‘consequence,’ in a healthy and productive way, that won’t undermine and compromise your own self-esteem and that of a child will be the topic of a future discussion. For now let’s just say that your kids are a barometer of you. If there is any inconsistency or imbalances in your own behaviour, beliefs and attitudes, children will react to it.

Inhibitors and the issues that Undermine Self Esteem

Substance Abuse

This tops the list for a very good reason. Drugs, alcohol and other problematic and addictive behaviour such as gambling are now so rampant in society that the moral values of society itself can now be compared to the levels and semblance of literally living in a sewer among staggering numbers of very demented and insane people.

Define Alcoholic. A chronic disorder characterized by dependence on alcohol, repeated excessive use of alcohol, the development of withdrawal symptoms on reducing or ceasing intake, morbidity that may include cirrhosis of the liver, and decreased ability to function socially and vocationally

Alcohol is a depressant both for those who drink it in excess and for those who are subjected to the fallout of the abusers toxic behaviour. Alcohol abuse, whether through alcoholism, binge drinking or occasional excessive drinking leading to intoxication is in itself self-destructive and ALWAYS results in further destructive behaviour of self and/or towards others.’

Turn up sober at any place or event where alcohol is flowing and you are guaranteed to be in for a very toxic night of dysfunctional entertainment. You will bare witness to or be personally affected by the destruction of relationships, see a completely different side to people you know (usually a nasty, aggressive or immoral one.) You may find yourself caught up in an all in brawl, get sexually harassed, be preyed upon, abused, spat on and violated in countless other ways. Your safety and/or life may be jeopardized either because of your own stupidity or because of your heavily intoxicated girlfriend who put you into a dangerous and compromising situation.

Never overlook or underestimate the fact that baring witness to something that is destructive and toxic does and will impact you and affect your own self-esteem. Those who are particularly sensitive to energy will feel the dense dark energy wherever there is alcohol and/or drugs being consumed. Empaths will soak up all of the negative and destructive energy vibrations from all of those around them. If you haven’t learnt the tools and skills to protect and cleanse your energy field from this you will surely carry these negative energies within and in turn this will tax your own self-esteem and maybe even cause you physical sickness or physical/psychological/emotional pain and suffering.

Alcohol/drug abuse leaves you with a bad hangover (which is actually a withdrawal symptom) and on a downer at best or with one hell of a mess to clean up at worst. You may have regrets, embarrassment, shame or just feel plain vile. Whichever way it goes you have just taken a whopping withdrawal out of your self-esteem account because you have undermined yourself, acted against your better judgement,inner wisdom and the consequence is feeling lousy, guilty about and maybe even disgusted by what you may have done whilst under the influence. It is a cul-de-sac – the dead end, perpetuated through highs and lows totally lacking in balance and full of loopy loops.

Sadly, few have the sense or intelligence to connect the dots in order to figure out why they feel so badly about themselves and how they are their own worst enemy,  contributing to their own downfall and to that of society as a whole. They actually think that being like everybody else and fitting in with the crowd somehow makes them as good as the rest. And parents, bosses, other superiors and peers only reinforce this false, negative and destructive belief through their own negative example. To be part of the crowd or to want to be like the rest is to be insane. Unfortunately there are few truly sane, healthy, balanced, empowered and inspired role models in this world.

Statistically as few as 15% percent or less of the population are immune to brainwashing. As for the majority who fail to take control and responsibility of their own minds and behaviour they are and will be controlled by somebody who will take control and that is often the psychopaths of the world. Easily manipulated, influenced and swayed into the status quo regardless of whether or not the culture is good, healthy and wise they are like putty in the psychopaths’ hands and have played right into their trap. There is nothing healthy, empowering, liberating, or feel good about the whole substance abuse status quo. It is a self-sabotaging death cult that is so incredibly contradictory to happiness and freedom, so sick and demented that whole communities are being completely desecrated by it.

Law of freedom – Freedom and morality are directly proportional. As the morality increases, freedom increases. As morality declines, freedom declines. You cannot possibly be a part of the status quo and consider yourself to be a “good” person with moral fibre whilst contributing your energy into the polluted and corrupted cesspool that has been engineered and fuelled by sick and twisted psychopathic ideology. Take a long, hard look at the massively growing amount of government laws and regulation and notice that you can barely do a thing these days without breaking a law or acquiring a license or permit. Not a problem to most for as long as the liquor and drugs are still flowing.

Substance abusers are really good at denying and forgetting everything in their refusal to take any responsibility for what they have done under the influence. Record them if they need convincing and replay it to them when they are sober. Hold them to account for their behaviour. Never cover up their tracks, gloss over, make excuses for or accommodate their actions. If they have done something inexcusable then call it for what it is. The substance is not responsible, the consumer is.  If they can’t control the affect the substance has on them then the only rational solution is to stop indulging in the substance.

Lying, Cheating and Deceiving

Like substance abuse these issues too have become so status quo that many wear their lies along with their substance abuse like a badge of honour. “Everybody does it” is the common catch cry and justification. Generally speaking this is true. The majority of people are self-deceptive and delusional and/or lie, cheat and deceive others to one degree or another.

People only ever lie for one of two reasons.

1. They are ashamed of what they are doing.

2. They don’t want to warn others – just before they screw them.

If you are compelled to lie ask yourself why? Lying is a strong indicator that your self-esteem is low or non-existent.  Try and pinpoint what destructive behaviour, negative or contradictory belief is causing you to feel ashamed and compelled to lie? How are you undermining and/or denying your own self-worth and esteem?

Compulsive and/or pathological liars and deceivers are so caught up in their web of lies that they have completely lost touch with and connection to any semblance of truth in regards to themselves and everything that spews out of their mouths. Some are so entrenched in literally living the lies that even those who are trained in reading body language and using other means of lie detection can be deceived for a time because these seasoned liars actually believe their own lies and they can stare you in the eye without so much as flinching. They will repeat the same rapporteur word for word which serves to reinforce the deception through repetition.  Common traits of the liar, is that they always make promises that go unfulfilled. They are “gunna’s”. You know the type, “I’m gunna do this and gunna do that,” but for some unfortunate reason, usually through no fault of their own nothing  eventuates. Time and getting trapped in their own web of deception will eventually bring their undoing.

If you suspect you are being lied to and deceived, follow your hunch by digging deeper. Words are cheap. Always pay more attention to actions and assess whether they align with the words. Demand proof and evidence to put your mind at rest. If someone admits to lying on meeting them or they justify the fact that they have lied, walk away and save yourself much grief. Staying with a liar, cheat or deceiver will undermine your own self-esteem because to stay is to accommodate and to be complicit with bad and abusive conduct. To deny this truth is to deceive oneself which in turn will lead to attracting your own consequences and more liars into your life as they will come to mirror your own self-deception and denial of the truth.

Cheating with a cheat does not make you any less accountable to the laws of karma and consequence. No matter how much you might try to defy natural law you cannot defy it any more than you can defy gravity. One way or another, the universe and your conscience will deliver the hard lessons. Every time you fail to learn the lesson it will be repeated ‘ten-fold’ the next time around.

Addicts are more often than not liars as well. They lie to themselves and everybody else every day in order to justify their addiction/s. Those with an addiction often have multiple or a combination of addictions. Whilst many addicts have a heart of gold when they are sober their negative attributes always far outweigh the positive in the end. They are walking the path of self-destruction and they will surely take you down with them.

 

Sin,Guilt and Religion

How on earth could religion inhibit and undermine self -esteem?  The fact is religion does so consistently through the negative reinforcement of a destructive rapporteur that goes something like this. “You were born a sinner. God is watching everything you do and if you sin you will be cast into the hellfire with the devil on judgement day. If you were born into a religion that preaches in this tone then you were abused through traumatising fear tactics and threats from the outset.

The only truly innocent and pure souls in this world are those peering out of prams. How could you possibly be a sinner when you have not yet lived? Charged and condemned from birth religion merely reinforces self-loathing and promotes a guilty conscience. Plain and simple it is manipulation of the psyche, brainwashing, programing and conditioning which distorts ones perception of self, distorts truth and reality and corrupts the minds and hearts of its followers. As said former Bishop John Spong, “The church fired its furnaces hotter than anybody else.  Religion is in the guilt producing control business.”

A guilty conscience attracts and reaps punishment as the consequence regardless of whether or not the guilt is justified. If you are repetitively shamed and accused of something even if you are your biggest accuser and even if it is an unjust accusation based on negative, limiting or incorrect and corrupted beliefs, you will start to believe in the lie of your apparent guilt. And once you believe you are guilty you will ultimately punish and sabotage yourself over and over again until you wake up to the fact by identifying  the negative and destructive pattern.  Awareness is key, for only then can the issue be healed and self-forgiveness can begin.

We mortal beings learn through “mistakes,” trial and error. The biggest mistake is if and when we fail to learn from them. To condemn someone to the hellfire for a mistake, particularly if it is a redeemable mistake is something only an evil and unjust force would dictate. Define “sin.” It varies from religion to religion depending on how fanatical and fundamentalist it is. Check in with yourself. Does the dictates of your religion attach ‘sin’ and or guilt to actions, behaviours or even thoughts that don’t actually cause any harm to anybody or their possessions? Is your own conscience and natural law not enough to keep you in check?  One does not have to believe in karma or the law of cause and effect in order to reap the consequences of cause and effect or jump off a cliff in order to prove that gravity is in effect.  And yet apparently one has to believe in the dictates of another mere mortal and accept him as the controller and intermediary in order to feel and be closer to God or earn their place in heaven.

Religion attaches guilt to sex in a way that creates sexual dysfunction. When you grow up with a sexual stigma attached to premarital sex, that guilt and stigma does not suddenly leave your psyche the moment you get married. Sexual and spiritual energy are closely connected. Oppress sexual energy and you also oppress spiritual energy and your connection to self, soul and creation itself.  The oppression of one or both undermines self-esteem and disconnects you from your soul which is your wise inner guide. The founders of religion know this and use this knowledge against their loyal followers in order to gain and maintain power and control.

Ironically in Muslim practicing countries in which the woman are severely oppressed and made to wear berka, rape is astoundingly high in comparison to sexually freer countries and it is the victim that is punished for the crime under Sharia law.  Sexual oppression turns men into stark raving lunatics who go on to rape and murder, which partly explains why many Catholic Priests are convicted pedophiles.

Religion plays a huge role in keeping people disempowered and disconnected from their inner wisdom and divine nature and therefore the religious will never become self- actualised masters as their beloved Christ. Religious founded beliefs and ideologies continue to have a massive influence throughout society and affect and infect the whole population regardless of whether they go to church or not. Few church goers have ever researched or studied the history of their religion. Catholic schools certainly don’t teach about their own ruthless bloody history in which their Pope’s led their worshippers on numerous crusades through the centuries in which millions were slaughtered and massacred in the name of their evil GoD. Spell it backwards and what you get is(DoG.)

The origin of the word ‘religion’ lies in the Latin word ligare, to bind. … fourth century, opted for religare, a verb meaning “to fasten or bind. To declare “I am a devout Christian,” as many do as though it is a badge of honour that somehow makes them a good person and “superior” to others is to inadvertently admit to those who are not religious indoctrinated that you are in fact brainwashed, bound – a slave to a patriarchal, statist dictatorship which gained its power and control through thousands of years of violence and fear porn. All of the 30,000 + registered religions claim to be the one true faith and have all of the answers, yet each and every one of them were founded on a similar version of the others and for the same desire for power, control and money. It is the same thing recycled and repackaged; the choice being only an illusion.

Negative and Contradictive Beliefs

Notice in the word “belief” there is a lie. Much of what you think you know is wrong. The psychopathic controllers of the world have infiltrated and/or founded every organisation and institution there is and in order to maintain their control they have withheld enormous amounts of knowledge from the masses, manipulated information and spread disinformation because knowledge is power and by withholding and twisting it they keep the balance of power dynamic in their favour and the masses enslaved to their systems of control and dictatorships.

With the advent of the internet however, you now have access to just about everything there is to know, though no one will ever know everything and you have to weed through volumes of information in order to separate fact from fiction. Truth is often stranger than fiction and can further complicate investigation and confuse seekers of truth because ‘conspiracy’ is a touchy word. Extensive research however can reveal just how deceptive those in power are and how they have lied about everything from history to medicine. You may think that you had an education at school and in college. But the truth is you had an “ indoctrination” and simply learnt to memorise and parrot lines. Like with religion, critical thinking, inquisitiveness and questioning is not encouraged in school and may even attract a scolding or punishment. Why is it that institutions that claim to have all of the answers don’t allow any questions?

The education system is geared towards left brain orientation, the male side. However, not everybody is left brain orientated. Creative types for example are more right brain orientated and learn in a completely different way to left brain orientated people. The education system does not accommodate the difference as it has a “one shoe fits all” policy. Unfortunately the right brain orientated kids who (if the truth be known) often have above average I.Q’s, get bored and frustrated with school, frequently end up being branded and banished to the naughty corner. Those are the kids that often skip massive chunks of school and leave early with bad grades. School was a prison to them and once they finally got to escape they were far better off in the long run because the indoctrination had less of an impact on them. (Pink Floyd’s hit song “Another Brick in the Wall,” precisely addressed the dark cynicism of ‘thought control’ and mind imprisonment carried out through the education system.) Diagnosed ADHD or branded as failures many take this to heart and continue to lug around the labels maybe for the rest of their lives.

This is a perfect example as to how we acquire negative belief patterns, programming and conditioning. Repetitive reinforcement of words, which are (spell)ings  can and do literally cast spells on you. Called a ‘loser’ many times over and you wind up believing it. Once the belief is firmly ingrained, you act out on your feelings and the outside world then responds with endless reinforcement by reflecting your beliefs back at you and maybe even repeating the word, ‘Loser.’

Contradictive beliefs are to have two opposing beliefs operating simultaneously. For example, you may have a stigma type belief like, “I’m insane,” that became ingrained through being called that repetitively. On the contrary, part of you be it your inner wisdom perhaps, doesn’t truly believe that you are insane. When contradictory beliefs are operating, usually on a subconscious level it in turn creates a mental schism and/or an inner battle between the different aspects of self, e.g. ego v’s heart. You could quite literally be at war within yourself. A mental schism is to have an imbalance between the left (masculine intellect) and right (feminine intuitive) sides of the brain.

To quote the closing scene words of the character named Chris played by Charlie Sheen in the movie Platoon who said, “I think now looking back, we did not fight the enemy. We fought ourselves and the enemy was in us.”

If you are seeking peace in your life then you must first be at peace with yourself and that means being self-loving. Peace can never be achieved or restored by fighting for it because “peace” and “fight” are directly opposed.

We live in a very contradictory world filled with contradictory messages, double speak and standards. It isn’t any wonder people are confused and don’t know the difference between right and wrong. Even the bible is filled with contradiction. There’s the commandment, “Thou shalt not kill.’ But in the Old Testament the God depicted, ordered the people to stone to death the sorcerers and astrologers. To this day many an ignoramus still believes astrology is evil or irrelevant without having ever studied the topic and discovering the connection and use of it throughout the bible and religion. There is a very good reason why astrology has been given a bad rap and it’s all about controlling knowledge for the sake of maintaining power. Ironically the hat (called a “mitre,” a tall, folded hat with a top that looks like a fish’s mouth) worn by the Pope is symbolic of the zodiac sign Pisces. In the year and at the time of Christs’ birth a rare astrological event occurred. It was a triple conjunction between Jupiter and Saturn in the sign of Pisces which only occurs every 900 years. Predicting the alignment heralded the birth of a new King, a group of Persian astrologers guided by the stars set off on a long journey to Bethlehem. The astrologers otherwise known as The Magi  also referred to as the (Three) Wise Men or (Three) Kings, visited Jesus after his birth, bearing gifts of gold, frankincense and myrrh.

The hierarchy of the Catholic church, along with most other official authorities and people in power are very well educated in astrology or they hire the services of astrologers to advise them. Accordingly many global events are orchestrated and timed according to astrology and numerology. From where do you think the annual calendar originates? Astrology and numerology are psychological empowerment tools each of us can use in order to reach knowledge and understanding of self. Astrology can be used for good or evil purposes and against those who are ignorant of the fact. This however does not make the study, knowledge and use of astrology evil. It merely makes the abuser of the knowledge and power and tool evil.

Parents hit their kids and tell them they did it because they love them. Well pedophiles justify their crimes too by telling their victims the same thing. Everything is upside down and back to front. As it currently stands those who commit the biggest crimes against humanity through war, supplying drugs (including the toxic legal ones) steal resources, property, rights and freedoms and even peoples souls, are the same ones who are obscenely rewarded, whilst the truly moral Good Samaritans of the world go unnoticed and are used, abused, trodden all over and even assassinated.

Contradictory and negative belief patterns reap havoc in your life and keeps self-esteem levels at a low. The first port of call in resolving this is to weed out the negative. Pay attention to what other people say to you. If they say you have just made a contradictory statement then assess and acknowledge it. Awareness is key, only then can you do something about it. Energy work such as kinesiology and EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) are highly recommended for working with negative and contradictory belief patterns.

Trauma

Humanity as a whole has been traumatised through thousands of years of abuse, war, religion, sick ideologies, oppression, slavery, starvation, poverty and countless barbaric acts that continue to be wielded by the evil and destructive dark forces.

Whether one believes in reincarnation or not, trauma and memories are also inherited and stored at a cellular level. Energy sensitive and conscious practitioners can and do see or sense in others, everything from past physical wounds to psychological and spiritual trauma. Whilst the physical wound may have healed, the trauma related to it lingers on in the energy field and can be triggered for as long as the trauma itself remains unhealed. Therefore there is not a single living soul who is not carrying some degree of trauma within their psyche. Most however are unaware of or have literally lost all memory of traumatic ordeals.

Though it is generally a welcomed and celebrated experience, being born is a traumatic ordeal for both the child and the mother. The trauma experienced is quickly forgotten and life goes on. However, untreated and unhealed trauma is easily triggered through reminders. For example; in the past you were subjected to some form of violence. Every time there is even the slightest threat of violence or a violent story is heard the unhealed trauma is triggered, which in turn causes a reaction that can seem irrational and unexplainable to the unaware.

Reaching for the nearest bottle of vodka or a “quick fix” happy pill as a means to coping is not only unhealthy and unwise but detrimental to resolving trauma. It has the same effect as pouring fuel on a fire in an attempt to put the fire out. Makes no sense what-so-ever and yet this is exactly how the mainstream culture attempts in vain to cope and deal with their trauma and issues. The holistic approach is to seek and use one of the numerous therapies or modalities that are not only healing at a core level but are also empowering of the whole self. Many of these modalities can easily be learned for treating oneself which is highly recommended for even greater self-empowerment.

Competing and Comparing Oneself to Others

“Haters don’t really hate you, they hate themselves because you are a reflection of what they wish to be.” – Anonymous

“If you care what other people think, you will always be their prisoner.”- Lao Tzu

Someone once said, “The most beautiful woman in the room is often the loneliest woman of all.” Of course no one would believe this except for the one experiencing it. The opposite sex are intimidated by her, prey on her like drooling hyenas or compete for her like a trophy in a sport, whilst other females are threatened by her and frequently attack her with their jealous wrath.  Think again before wishing to trade places with her.

A survey conducted in Australia among the nations’ most successful, wealthiest business people revealed one common theme. Each one achieved their success against all condemnation from other people in their lives who called them idiots and told them to get a real job. These success stories are about people who went against the grain and simply followed their passion in life, regardless of what others thought of them, a courageous feat.

Aussie actress come singer / song writer Kylie Minogue was subjected to one of the most vicious and ruthless public smear and ‘hate’ campaigns ever as she rose to international stardom. A low life scumbag profited at her expense through producing “I hate Kylie,” merchandise and it seemed the whole country was on the bandwagon. However the “haters” were silenced and evaporated once Kylie made it big in the UK and suddenly Kylie’s popularity in Australia was on the upswing with everybody bidding  for a piece of her.

Those who have the time and inclination to judge and condemn others for that which they don’t have themselves also have no guts and therefore no glory will ever come to them. If you aren’t doing and accomplishing something you can be proud of with your life then don’t expect to ever be empowered with self-esteem.

Idolizing and worshipping others

The moment you idolize or worship someone else, be it your lover, celebrities, the Queen, a deity, Christ or make the acquisition of things like money, fame, status or a job the higher priority in your life you devalue your sacred self and throw away your personal power. It is not unlike a form of Stockholm syndrome, defined as capture-bonding. Stockholm syndrome is a psychological phenomenon in which hostages express empathy and sympathy and have positive feelings toward their captors, sometimes to the point of defending and identifying with the captors.

Celebrities, sports stars, royalty, presidents and the Pope, literally capture the attention and energy of their worshippers and hold them spellbound. Their mere presence sends those worshippers who have no sense of self into idealisation projection that feeds and fuels the sensationalism, hysteria and ultimately the idols power and influence. If only these foolish souls knew who and what they are actually worshipping they might think twice about throwing their power away. The fact of the matter is you cannot possibly know if your idol is worthy of your adulation when you don’t personally know him or her. Royal devotees appear mindless to the fact that these blue blooded parasites gained their privileged positions solely through incarnating into the bloodline which gained its ruling power and wealth through centuries of invasion, genocide and theft. They ordered the most heinous of crimes and destruction against millions of the world’s population and in return the insane masses worship them – their evil masters. Never consider that the Queens golden carriage alone worth billions could feed and house those millions who are homeless and starving to death around the world every day. No, instead the stupid ignorant slaves waste their hard earned money on buying a royal souvenir adding to the obscenely overflowing royal coffers.

Incidentally the one royal Princess Diana who was a humanitarian like JFK were conveniently assassinated for blowing the whistle on the psychopathic ruling class and for attempting to expose and counteract their evil doings. Of course mindless sleep walkers accept the lie in the belief of the official versions of their deaths regardless of the fact that the official versions were full of holes and steeped in propaganda. Recently deceased former forensic investigator John Morgan wrote eleven books during the last decade of his life dedicated to the most extensive body of evidence gathering and exposing the truth of Diana’s assassination. In the fifth of the eleven books John provides conclusive evidence that the Queen personally ordered MI6 to murder Diana. A documentary based on John’s investigation of Di and Dodi’s murders “Unlawful Killing” can be viewed on You Tube.

Diet and Exercise

Balanced health and wellbeing is dependent on the vitality of body, mind, heart and soul. One cannot possibly neglect one or the other and expect to have high levels of self-esteem as each aspect of oneself is connected. You cannot loll around like a sloth, fill your body with toxic, GMO Frankenstein food-like garbage and expect to feel good about yourself or be healthy of mind and body.

Once again there is much contradictory and disinformation out there in regards to diet together with retarded regulation that further confuses and misleads the consumer. Often times what you may think is healthy is not at all. For example Soy milk – contains 35 milligrams of Phyto Oestrogen… This is equal to 10 contraceptive pills per litre. Soy products have been linked to causing aggressive and erratic behaviour in the consumer as they interfere with and imbalance hormones.

(Ref source:  Dr. William Wong, ND, PhD)  http://www.naturalhealthpodcasts.com/index.html

 
A good rule of thumb is to seek moderation in everything, eat organic grown whole food, distil all drinking water and avoid packaged and processed food and sugar. This will automatically eliminate cravings, allergies, reduce hunger, detox the system, restore vitamin and mineral deficiencies, which is the cause of most illness and disease. Seek to build a strong, balanced immune system.

 
Eat when you are hungry and without guilt when on a natural, organic diet, whether that is grazing all day or eating 3 or 5 smaller meals a day. Tune in and listen to the wisdom of your own body as it knows best what fuel it needs. Everybody is different and therefore have different requirements. Choose a sport or exercise that you enjoy and will be motivated to do and stick to.

 
Address the underlying cause of obesity or other eating disorders – all of which are a sign of a compromised self-esteem. Someone with a healthy level of self-esteem would never allow them-self to become obese or anorexic. Comfort eating is often triggered through having been abused and or neglected. You quite literally pile on the padding as a subconscious attempt to protect yourself or fill yourself up with what is lacking on an emotional and/or physical level.

 

Damaging Relationships

Those who are disconnected from source energy and have little if no power of their own (which is the majority of the world) steal energy and power from others through role playing in the  dynamics of intimidators, interrogators, poor me’ and the aloof. Intimidators create the “poor me” type in others and vice versa. Interrogators create the aloof type in others and vice versa. These dynamics are at the core of all power struggles which is ultimately the core issue of all dysfunctional and challenging relationships. The role plays are often interchanged according to who one is dealing with at a given moment.
 
For example; a secretive “closed book” type personality is aloof with his wife which in turn drives her to make like an interrogator in order to drag some kind of response out of him. The more she is forced to work for a response, the more aloof and defensive he becomes. Out of sheer frustration she then resorts to intimidation and in turn he takes on the “poor me” dynamic. With his children however he might play the interrogator and intimidator roles.
 
Life would be so much easier sometimes if we didn’t have to deal with other people. But if you are dealing with difficult and challenging people all of the time who undermine your self-esteem and leave you feeling drained and worthless then it is time for you to be the one to wise up and change. To remain stuck in an unhealthy relationship is like being in a leaky boat. You are so busy bailing the water out but for as long as you fail to plug the hole you are still going to sink. So when is it time to bail?
 
If you have tried everything to no avail, feel frustrated and like you’re banging your head against a brick wall, then the only relief you are going to get is when you quit. It takes two healthy people who love, honour and respect themselves in order to have a healthy relationship.  Sadly the world has produced few positive examples of truly happy and healthy couples. The majority of couples not only hook up with one another for all of the wrong reasons but also stay with each other for all of the wrong reasons. Instead of looking for compatibility of mind, body, heart and soul or mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually they choose their partner based on ‘things’ like status, income, religion, age, neediness, expectation, whimsical idealistic dreams, impulsive attraction, fears of loneliness, desires for children and visions of happily ever after’s.  The security and material stability of the relationship may be good, but if the sex and actual emotional and spiritual connection leaves a lot to be desired then there will always be a feeling of emptiness and a yearning for that which is missing.
 
Few of us actually have high enough self-esteem and worth to command the highest love ideal with an equal. And fewer still actually meet their equal as a teen or in their younger years. For most it takes numerous relationships, much trial and error, growing and developing of self before one is ready for the big love. In fact it is in doing the Great work on developing oneself that one may eventually discover and be rewarded with meeting “the one.” For numerous reasons many won’t – not in this lifetime.
 
Programming and conditioning interferes with relationships and it can cause great fears for those who have been manipulated by it when they find themselves attracted to somebody who doesn’t ‘fit’ into the mould of the status quo. And yet it is those who do and can conquer the fear and free themselves of the limiting belief systems that are more likely to experience the higher love paradigm. Challenges involving age difference, religious preference, race, geography and culture are just that, challenges, which true love will endure and overcome. Fear is the opposite of love. Fear of love and intimacy causes many to run from the very thing their heart most desires. True love is a choice and is to have the ability to love first the self and only then the ability to love another. To love is to be the harbinger of authenticity, knowledge and truth which equates to higher consciousness and empowerment.

As part of the New World order and depopulation agendas, the psychopaths engineered and funded the feminist movement which has evolved into the feminazi movement. This sinister agenda together with eugenics is geared to emancipate the males, render them sterile, useless, docile and redundant.
The resulting raging battle between the genders has caused a divide between us along with the family unit – just as was planned and intended.

Let’s get real here, male or female we are all human with needs and both genders serve a greater purpose to the whole. Males wouldn’t exist without their mums and woman wouldn’t have most everything they use and own without the males who invented, designed and built them.

Patriarchal, feminazi, hierarchy – It’s time to evolve from all of this bullshit, grow up and wise up as that old tune has outlived its expiry date and brought nothing but misery to the world. Start to respect, honour and value our differences in gender, race & cultures rather than turning those differences into a battlefield and we can all start living in peace as one loving force.

Sometimes true love and compassion requires the kind of tough love type of compassion that kicks ass and takes names. You may love another but insist on loving yourself more. If a relationship comes with a hefty price tag attached and you are tolerating the intolerable, ask yourself if the relationship is worth it. And be sure to critically assess yourself before you go kicking the wrong arse.
Projecting your own weaknesses onto somebody else thereby failing to be accountable for your own issues, will only serve to keep a negative pattern in motion and for as long as that pattern is active you will continue to attract and be attracted to those who mirror your weakness, usually in a way that isn’t so obvious to you
Leaping headlong from one relationship to the next only to experience the same shit with a different face under different circumstances is a sure fire sign that you have a negative pattern to break. Afterall, the one thing your string of ex’s had in common – is you.

Dead end jobs and material greed.
 
It’s a job and having one in our current economic climate may be a luxury in many ways that many others don’t have. It puts food on the table and pays your bills, but does it come at a price? Once again there are few truly happy and healthy examples of people in this world who love what they are doing and do what they are doing in a healthy and balanced way. Health is the first wealth. People sacrifice their health for the wealth and then try to use the wealth to buy back their health only to find that they can’t. Others sell themselves short as a means to survival, make their work their highest priority at the expense of everything and everyone else in their lives, or even sell their souls for the sake of an income.
 
You are not your job and you were not put on this earth in order to battle for survival or to accumulate and hoard “things”. And yet our corrupted culture and the systems that create it have reduced us to a dog eat dog society in which we are terrorised and feared into the scarcity mentality, whilst at the same time are manipulated into being a mindless consumer of everything you can get your hands on. There are multi-millionaires in this world who cry poor, billionaires who share little if anything of their wealth with the other 99% of the world who are scrapping over only half of the entire worlds wealth.
 
This sickness will continue to thrive for as long as the masses remain asleep and oblivious to the illusions and falsities of the psychopathic mentality that manipulates them into being robotic like dupes. Wealth never did come with a guarantee of happiness. Wealth, power, fame and fortune acquired at the expense of everyone and everything else is a recipe destined for disaster. Pay attention and watch the newly elected world leaders turn grey and literally age overnight, notice how politicians’ mouths droop at the corners making them look angry and miserable, think about the premature deaths of superstars like Elvis. The list is very long for those who seemingly had it all but died prematurely through self- destructive means.
 
The Purpose and your Mission in Life

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. – Marianne Williamson

What is the point of being alive if you don’t at least try to do something remarkable? – John Green
 
Ultimately your purpose and mission in life is to wake up and evolve into higher consciousness. This means utilising more than a pea size amount of your brain – the ego, fearful primitive reptilian part of the brain that operates in an animalistic instinctive nature only. Ignorance is to dwell in dark places in a stunted capacity. At its worst ignorance destroys and kills. Expanding and freeing your mind of toxic and limiting belief systems, negative patterns, programing and brain washing in order for you to reach your higher conscious awareness is by contrast to be in and of the light. Knowledge = light = love. Those with the power of knowledge, with the capacity to fully love and the integrity to hold true to the light, have no such desire to rule over and control others. They understand that in harming another one ultimately harms oneself.
 
Conscious awareness means growing into being an empowered individual with a mind of your own and having a fearless, cavalier approach to life rather than degenerating into the collective conscious along with the masses of mindless sheep who wind up wasting an entire lifetime on meaningless pursuits. It requires your making a decisive choice and exercising your free will to do the Great work which just so happens to be both the most important and challenging work of all. This work is not accomplished by the faint of heart. For it requires the heart and courage equal to that of a lion. This is the work of prophets, visionaries, wayshowers, seers, sages, revolutionaries, mavericks, pioneers – the ultimate leaders and warriors who strive to transend the darkness in order to see the light and reach the level of self-mastery and higher conscious awareness.
 
This is painful and challenging work because the pursuit of mastery brings about transformation (within and outwardly in your life) and causes the destruction and death of all of the lies, illusions, beliefs, ideals and fantasies that you only think are true and real. Anything which isn’t authentic and in alignment with your true self, nature and purpose is consequently destroyed.

To be undertaking the Great work is to be on a journey fraught with opposition, endless obstacles and challenges. There are few if any rewards but many gruelling initiations, tests, struggles, sacrifices and dangers to confront. Few dare to embark and venture on this journey and yet eventually whether in this life time the next or the one after that, each and every soul must complete the lessons and pass the unavoidable tests in order to evolve and ascend into the next dimension – the next level of consciousness and ones higher potential.

The Big Picture

Humanity is now standing at the cross roads of two potential realities. The psychopaths intend to plunge the world back into the dark ages – a period in which humanities level of consciousness had fallen so low that the masses were literally living in the dark, void of education, knowledge and power. Life was brutal and short lived. As with the cycles of the seasons, life and death, our consciousness is subject to processions and declines. Currently we are in a procession cycle and headed into the Golden Age which coincides with the Age of Aquarius. It is in the golden age that humanities consciousness will be elevated to unlimited potential with all possibilities experienced as the norm.

The psychopathic control freaks of the world are well aware of where humanity is at in our evolution and it is because of this progression cycle of higher consciousness and unlimited potential that they are working overtime to prevent. Think about just how much we could achieve in this world if we were not consistently restrained and subjected to endless government controls on everything we do, the extortion, waste and plunder of our resources. They are so insane that they actually do think that they can beat and control nature and natural evolution and worse, they think they can achieve this without dire consequence. They are giving it their best shot too and in the process they have put the whole planet in jeopardy.

Psychopaths are by nature destructive destroyers, so what do they care? If the truth be known they are also the most fearful of all. Control freaks like all brutes are no different to frightened little animals. They may hide behind scary masks, power trips and control tactics, but beneath the cloak is really a very vulnerable beast, one that has more than everybody else to lose. The more power and wealth you have the harder the fall when you lose it. And the more educated and informed the masses become, the faster they are going to wake up to the psychopaths and their evil agendas. And that is the psychopaths greatest fear, biggest vulnerability and weakness.

For as long as the masses continue to ignore reality, deny the pervading existence of the evil, is acquiescent with corruption, complicit with abuses, the New Age theorists think they are going to be rescued by benevolent aliens and the religious continue to sit around waiting in vain for their savior Christ to return, the greater the odds of survival will be stacked against you.

Think about it. Christians have been waiting in vain for two thousand years for Christs’ return. In the meantime hundreds of generations have come and gone and millions have been slaughtered along the way. A rational mind would have accepted the error in his belief system eons ago. It is not a “being” that you need to come save you, rather it is the Christ consciousness that is eluding you.
Christ = Sun = Light = Consciousness = knowledge = Truth = Love.
Conscious beings live by a code of ethics and the moral standards as set by Christ. They lead by example, as did Christ. They are by initiation and virtue masters of self. Self mastery is achieved through breaking out of the chains of bondage and slavery and embracing the authentic self.

Every day in every way we are faced with choices. The choices we make now are creating our future experience. Therefore if we hope to enjoy a prosperous future founded on love, peace and freedom, then each and every one of us must take the responsibility to consciously create this from the foundation of a healthy and balanced self esteem.

We must take daily action to avoid the numerous death traps the psychopaths have set for us,(i.e. toxic food, water, EMF) empower our minds, spirit and bodies with healthy, organic foods in order to keep our immune systems working at peak performance.

Conscious Individuals empowered with healthy levels of self esteem are subservient to no one. They do not need guru’s or accept “masters” as they are their own guru and master, are in control of themselves and their own journey through life. They do not accept any kind of abuse from anyone or bow to those who claim to be the authority or the law with the powers of god to do as they please. Those who are driven to control and rule over everybody else are totally out of control themselves. They are maniacs whose judgement cannot be trusted. They trust no-one, not even themselves.

Love is ultimately both the answer and the solution to reclaiming our power, saving ourselves and our world from imminent destruction. Veering off the course of destruction both self and other imposed IS the way to then be free to create the alternative world which will actually be worth living in. It all starts with self love, knowledge and respect. We will reach the pivotal turning point when enough of us are actually choosing to feed the good wolf within, are self loving and therefore value and respect all life forms including our planet which provides all of the resources to sustain us.

In essence we are all spiritual beings having a human experience – one that we are still learning to orientate and master. Both our spiritual and material form are as valuable as the other. You cannot deny one aspect in favour of the other and expect to be a whole and complete person. Harnessing the energy of both together is key to full empowerment.

In the lead up to December 21st 2012 marking the end of the Mayan calendar, the dark forces fuelled the fear of death in the masses through spreading ‘end times’ doomsday messages throughout the media and entertainment networks. As is always the case whenever the dark forces wish to create a divide, diversion and distraction amoungst the masses, they resort to their weapon of fear to invoke the lower energy frequency. The Fear frequency is the opposite of love being the higher energy frequency. Those who buy into the fear propaganda remain trapped in this lower energy vibration, are immediately dis-empowered and disconnected from the wisdom of their intuition and higher conscious. In truth December 21st 2012 should have been a day of celebration on a global scale, for it marked the beginning of the end of the 2000+ year long Age of pisceas, the reign of the controlling oligarchs, their systems of power and control and the end of the dark age which occurred in the Iron Yuga cycle.

During the Iron Yuga cycle humanities consciousness fell to 25% capacity due to the sun and Sirius (which directly affects the consciousness of humankind) orbiting at their furthermost distance from one another. The sun and Sirius are now headed back through this cycle that has taken thousands of years to complete. Sirius’s transit has sped up as it now races back towards the sun and through the Bronze Yuga. If it seems time has sped up, that is literally the Sirius affect on consciousness at work. In being that much closer to the sun, Sirius is elevating our consciousness level to 50%. In the following silver yuga, consciousness will be restored to 75% capacity followed by 100% in the golden age.

Like awaking from a very long sleep in the dark – a nightmare really when one considers that the most bloodiest of warfare and hatred has occurred during the Pisces iron age, the masses are now awakening at lightening speed and not soon enough for those who are already awake. Other rare and powerful planetary transits, such as the 7 Uranus/Pluto squares have been assisting with this mass awakening and transformation process. If in your personal astrological natal chart you have planets between 5 to 15 degrees in the signs of Capricorn and Aries or their opposite signs Cancer and Libra it is likely that you strongly felt the affects of these Uranus pluto squares in at least one area of your life. For some the transits have brought a complete destruction of their former lifestyle, relationships etc which may have been rather traumatizing. It will take some time yet to recover and rebuild as you may feel that you have been wiped out by a hurricane.

Of course there will always be the degenerates, those who willfully refuse to wake up. Many are actually brain damaged and are beyond help. Those who are unable to adjust to the higher energy vibrations that are now raising the frequency of our planet will perish as they continue to subject themselves to the toxic overload of poisons etc and fail to take preventative action to neutrilize the damage being done.

The dark forces are not about to let go of the power and control of their own accord. Rather they will fight to the bitter end in order to maintain their stance and it is this that continues to play out around the globe on a grand scale right now as they have amped up their endevours and are utilising every weapon at their disposal in their attempts to keep us from waking up and evolving to the higher level of consciousness. They are doomed to fail however since nature is and always will be more powerful than the predators who arrogantly think they are immune to the repercussions of their own weaknesses and self-destruction.

We can all play a part in defeating the evil and the injustices of the world by taking our power back, realising the truth and potential of this power. It all begins with you, overcoming the limitations of your victim mentality, your fears and becoming a rebel with a meaningful cause which has implications expanding well beyond yourself.

Know thy enemy and the weapons they use. Hit them where it hurts economically. Stop funding their corporations and poisoning yourself with their products. Support local small business and farmers markets. If any still exist in your area, know that they are struggling to survive endless government regulations and fierce competition with greedy corporations. Go back to basics, start growing your own organic produce. Share excess with neighbors with the aim to rebuild the community spirit of giving,
invest in a distiller for the purest form of drinking water, use chemical free personal products, turn off the tellievision and start filling your head with quality brain food, consider casting a vote of no confidence at your next election. Use a pen to draw a line through all candidate boxes and write “no confidence in any candidate.” Do your research before donating to charity. Many charities have been set up by the parasites as a means of tax evasion, money laundering and purely as yet another means to screw you of your cash.

Join the worldwide network of activists for support and use your own unique expression, talents and gifts to expose the dark forces and their agenda’s. Share what you learn and know with everyone you associate with. Two years ago you might have been given that strange look on mentioning the depopulation agenda or stating that 911 was an inside job. Today however only the willfully ignorant sleepwalkers are, to their own detriment on the path to oblivion. Let them go on their merry way and don’t waste your time and energy on them or the many energy vampires and dupes who are continuing to serve the dark forces, cause distractions and division. You have purpose and a mission to fullfil, so get to it.

© Dee Coote
Holistic Counsellor & Shaman
Pure Spirit

 

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Dee’s Bio

Brief Bio

Dee’s Practice in the Alternative Healing industry began in 2002 providing Holistic Counselling / Coaching, psychic readings, various healing therapies and services. She also facilitates personal, spiritual and psychic development courses to share the knowledge, ‘tools of the trade’ and techniques with students. Further training and development in shamanic healing and the emotional freedom technique (EFT) was integrated into her practice a few years later.

A passionate writer Dee was fortunate enough to attract a freelance Journalist / Editor position in 2005 for an independent local monthly newspaper. Dee consequently took the opportunity to also write the horoscopes and to create a 4-8 page extra feature within the newspaper which she called Savvy Mind, Body & Soul – a guide to balanced health and well-being. This feature proved to be a great success and became a regular edition.

In 2008 Dee added yet another leg to her business working with other small to medium sized businesses assisting them in the financial area initially. However, Dee would often find herself wearing a number of different hats within some of these businesses when the owners discovered her numerous talents and skills to do everything from counselling to sales.

The exposure to numerous businesses/industries and the many challenges these businesses face, sparked Dee’s interests in global economics, politics and the financial system, which led to extensive investigative research and the subsequent revealing of the “dark agendas” and plans the psychopathic rulers of the world are implementing and have in store for humanity.

Consequently Dee has since added a few more hats to the list – Humanitarian, Freedom Activist and Truth Warrior. “Everything is linked. One thing has led to another and I have acquired the tools, skills and knowledge which I am now consolidating, utilizing and sharing with all of those who care enough to help themselves, hear the truth, see the truth of our reality and are prepared to take a pro-active approach in fulfilling their purpose, transforming this world into the heavenly state it is potentially destined to be – if we are all willing to heal ourselves, transcend our own dark shadows and work together to heal this planet of the destructive insanity disease. I offer my services and informative videos as a means for inspiration, motivation, education and empowerment with all pure intention and in good faith that humanity will collectively break the chains of enslavement and servitude to the dark forces, evolve into higher consciousness, embrace the true state of freedom and sovereignty as nature intended and align with our birth right.

“I gratefully and warmly extend my appreciation and offer an olive branch to the numerous teachers, warriors, visionaries, wayshowers and kindred spirits who have/are courageously undertaking the Great Work and continue to inspire me through their positive example.”

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Extended Version

Born in Melbourne Australia Dee’s formal training in holistic medicine, healing and living began in the year 2000 with a Level 1 Reiki course. (Rei) which means “Universal Life” and (Ki) which means “Energy” is a ‘hands on healing’ practice developed in 1922 by Japanese Buddhist Mikao Usui. Dee was attuned to Reiki through Dr Stephen Fawcett a Reiki Master who is the 5th in the line of succession of masters trained under Mikao Usui.

Dee met Dr Fawcett when she attended his yoga class. It was one of those chance meetings that occurred in divine timing as Dee’s friend Maureen, who is the Matron of one of the States’ hospitals, had been playing a part in initiating Dee’s future healing career through teaching her a thing or two about metaphysics and encouraging Dee to do a Reiki course.

Around the time she met Maureen in the mid 90’s, Dee had extensively been studying, researching and investigating everything related to preventative medicine, nutrition, chemical free products, vaccines, the history of the pharmaceutical industry and the Big Pharma conspiracy. The study of metaphysics was like a natural progression for her and sparked an interest in the healing arts. At this stage Dee considered herself a ‘closet’ spiritualist. A natural born psychologist the ‘go to’ person for support and a compassionate listening ear to everybody around her, Dee had been keeping her “all things spiritual and mystical” interests to herself out of fear of being ostracized and misunderstood.

Dee’s interest in these subjects originated from a need to search for answers and understanding to many of life’s unanswered questions. Dee had been raised from birth in an American founded ‘cult’ religion, in which she was (by the age of fourteen) becoming increasingly ostracized due to the unjust accusation that she was a willful and rebellious teen who asked too many questions. Questions they could not answer, dismissed outright or retaliated to with contempt. This reaction together with the church’s preaching’s only prompted more questions.

Dee is rather sharp witted and noticed that in recent years the dictates from the ministry were becoming increasingly absurd. Parents did nothing without first consulting the ministry to ask permission to do the simplest things such as ear-piercing. Dee was fully convinced that the church founder Herbert W Armstrong, an old man in his nineties, had gone totally senile when he linked make-up to prostitution, manipulated a passage in the bible to support his argument and banned the congregation from wearing makeup and dying their hair. The moment the service finished around two hundred woman made a speedy exit to the bathroom to wash off their makeup. When Dee finally reached the mirror she boldly applied more makeup to the shock and horror of the other woman who shot her with disgusted looks. Dee returned their glares thinking, ‘What a weak and pathetic flock of brainless sheep they are,’ as she exited the bathroom in a gleeful waltz feeling like she was on an all so powerful high.

Back home Dee announced to her mother she would not be returning to the church. “Mum was a very domineering force who hadn’t matured past the psychological age of an adolescent and could never be reasoned with. We were constantly doing battle with one another. She was a staunch Royalist and I had grown up being brow beaten with royal and religious propaganda and hypocrisy, all of which I vehemently opposed and no amount of factual knowledge that I had offered forth, had swayed her allegiance to the Queen or the church. So in this case I simply said, “If makeup comes from prostitution, then that makes your beloved queen a prostitute.”

For once her mother was silenced. Around the same time mother was forced by the school to sign Dee out. She was still some weeks away from turning fifteen – the legal age to leave school. A meeting had occurred prior and it had been decided that since Dee had barely shown up at school all term it was pointless to try and keep her there since all attempts to force her back into the classroom had been futile. Dee rejoiced at her new found freedom from what she considered to be mere prisons. She felt incredibly powerful now … just for a little while until the fear crept in. This was far too much power for a girl her age to reasonably control. So the power was shoved down again and Dee conformed to the workplace which didn’t feel much different to how it was at church and school.

Later Dee would discover of her own accord that she actually had an unquenchable thirst for knowledge and education as long as it stimulated her inquisitive mind. During her own research around cancer, she discovered that cancer is a ‘deficiency disease.’ In the 70’s the same year her father had died from cancer, only two weeks before her fifth birthday, studies and trials had shown Vitamin B17 cures cancer but this information had instantly been suppressed by the FDA.

Dr Fawcett, a cellular biologist had specialized in Cancer research until he realized the whole cancer industry ‘is a scam.’ He’d left the industry prior to meeting Dee and was now a practicing Chinese Medicine Doctor and a Reiki Master. Dee was curiously fascinated and pleasantly surprised to discover this – here was two ‘mainstream medicine’ people she knew who were now practicing and teaching her all about the alternative. Their example gave Dee the confidence boost she was lacking to formally acknowledge and pursue her passions. However, it took Dee about another year practicing reiki on herself and family before she ever dared to mention ‘reiki’ or offer a session to a friend.

2001 – Dee’s interests in, passions and thirst for knowledge in all of the topics mentioned above were snowballing and consistently expanding to a point in which Dee could no longer contain it all in secret. Like having an itch that you can’t scratch she was searching for an outlet to this gnawing feeling that there was something she was supposed to be doing with all of this knowledge and information she’d discovered, but what exactly would she do?

She’d read a number of Louise Hays books and often wondered about these ‘alternative’ type counsellors Louise mentioned in her books. If there was one thing Dee was clear about it was that she was definitely not interested in pursuing a career in ‘conventional’ counselling. If an alternative type counsellor who practiced holistic therapies existed then that would be the direction Dee would take.

Once again divine timing and a chance meeting occurred. Dee had gained a diploma in comprehensive writing in 1996. Writing continues to be another one of Dee’s passions and so she was naturally delighted to be attending the very first meeting of a new local writers group that was being formed. It was at this meeting she met a young woman who happened to give her a copy of an “alternative” magazine she’d never seen before. Dee smiled in awe at the synchronicity of the universe when she opened the magazine and saw a big advertisement for ‘Holistic Living Counselling Institute’ http://holisticlivingcounselling.com.au/

The moment Alannah Dore the Holistic Living Counselling course facilitator answered the phone Dee felt like she was talking to a long lost friend. They chatted extensively and by the end of the conversation Dee knew exactly what she would be doing the following year in 2002.

9/11… Dee woke up to the horrific news that planes had hit the twin towers and both towers had collapsed. She sat glued to the television and relayed the whole replay over the phone to her partner. “Bullshit!” she snarled in disbelief.  “The buildings just went down like a demolition. There wasn’t even any fire beneath where the planes actually hit. How the fuck is that even possible?”

Dee knew this would lead to war. She’d already been quietly concerned since the early 90’s about escalating troubles in the Middle East advancing into WW3. It was no surprise to her when the US soldiers were deployed and Dee could see that 9/11 was used as a justification to invade and steal the oil. She wrote rather a controversial piece about it and shared it with her writers group. They were all stunned into silence and no one dared to comment.

Prior to travelling to Melbourne to meet with Alannah in person and enrol in the counselling course, Dee had taken a five week camping trip with her family travelling through central Australia to Darwin. An overnight stay and exploration of the opal mining town ‘Coober Pedy’ sparked a whole new interest for Dee when she learnt all about how the opals were discovered and mined. “I was totally fascinated and gobsmacked by these discoveries and what I learned from the education and mine tours. Coober Pedy is the most fascinating place I have ever been to. A cousin of mine had given me an amethyst pendent a couple of years earlier and she had told me a bit about the healing properties of gems. I was curious but I hadn’t really taken what she’d said very seriously until now.”

Coober Pedy is located in a desolate hole that stretches for thousands of miles. It’s where they filmed Mad Max. Above ground you are looking at a town that renders the word ‘shanty’ far too inadequate to really describe this place. Driving down the main street I’m noticing bars on all the shop windows and then a native fella jay walked out in front of us surrounded by his ten unleashed dogs and sent us into a screaming halt. “He’s so black he’s purple,” my partner said. Unless you have actually ventured ‘outback Australia,’ you have rarely if ever actually seen a full blood original Aussie. “I’m not staying in this hole,” declares the ten year old in the backseat who had done nothing but whine for the last two thousand kilometres.

Underground in the gem filled caverns however the tune immediately changed. “Like entering a crystal palace I nearly collapsed in awe at the magnificence of these huge boulders with the most prettiest and brilliant colours. I sensed the magic, felt my energy skyrocket into another dimension – it was literally like I had stepped into another world. Armed with a whole new appreciation for gems a new business venture idea was forming in my mind.”

By the end of 2002 Dee’s whole lifestyle was completely transformed and she had become a superwoman. She’d not only completed a certificate in small business management, graduated from the Holistic Living Counselling Institute course which had included psychic development, training in numerous modalities including crystal therapy, studies in astrology and numerology, but also established her business Divine Energies, a crystal and gift shop in the heart of the tourist precinct of her rural town. The superwoman role however had taken its toll and the day Dee opened the shop in September she got a severe bout of the flu.

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Early 2003 – The consulting rooms out the back of the shop were ready for use and Dee was now offering her counselling, coaching, numerous healing services, personal, spiritual and psychic development classes and fulfilling demands for psychic readings. “My business became the talk of the town – some good, some not so good. I suppose it didn’t help that a black cat had wandered into the shop and made itself at home on the counter. The customers were coming in and doing a double take. And this consequently led some to refer to my shop as the ‘Witches shop.’

Other than a couple of similar type shops that had come and gone over the years and other than the Chiropractors, a couple of naturopaths and one health food shop, no-one else had ever offered services like mine in town before and certainly not professionally and in full public view. A backward town in as far as having business’ and services with heart and soul promoting holistic health and wellbeing I was pioneering along with very few others. A popular holiday destination, my town is the place people come to party, drink and gamble. I call it Victoria’s Surfer’s Paradise or the mini Las Vegas. It rates high on the statistics list for domestic violence, has the highest licensed venues per capita in the nation and is generally completely lacking in pure energy.”

Dee’s business soon became the place to call into for a coffee, chat and to soak up the crystal energy. She had big plans and visions of where she was going to take this business and only ten months into it she won the major business achievement award from the Economic Development Board. Dee considered this one big tick of approval for the alternative industry and of course the award swiftly silenced her critics.

Soon after Dee had opened the shop she had started to experience some bizarre and unexplained events. Just about every day there would be some kind of out of the ordinary happening and / or people visiting. “I could write a whole book on all of the experiences that occurred over the course of eighteen months in that shop, which was actually housed in one of the first cottages, built when the town was founded in 1853.” Whilst Dee was still in training as a counsellor and in the process of psychic development the year before, she’d had a vision of this future business, seen the shop with its entry through glass French doors and had psychically toured the inside of the building and noted that this had once been a home in the historic part of town. After the vision Dee had walked that strip of town searching for the building with the French entry doors. There were two, one was an actual shop adjoining others and the other was the stand alone cottage further down the street.

The current business, a souvenir shop operating out of the cottage just happened to be up for sale. Dee had never actually been inside this building before. She went in and had a chat to the business owner who was happy to give her a tour out the back of the shop. Dee instantly knew this was the building she’d seen in her vision. There was the old fire place on the left backing onto the shop wall just as she’d psychically seen it and the original floor plan fit the vision. Dee bought the existing business for a small amount, renamed it, completely revamped and redecorated the building.

“Twice I was visited by a Scotsman (short in stature) who seemingly just appeared in the shop from nowhere. I had a buzzer on the doorway to let me know the second somebody entered the shop and I had a clear view of the entrance from the counter where I was sitting. However he had simply appeared before me without warning and took me by surprise. He asked me to explain ‘Divine Energies’ (the name of my shop.) ‘The crystals,’ I replied.”

“Aye, I get wherde comin’ from.” He informed me that he never believed in ‘supernatural phenomena’ until this one day when he was walking through the fair-grounds with a young mate of his – a stone mason. A gypsy woman sitting at her stall nearby spotted them, ‘Hey you, the stone mason, come over here. I have a message for you.’ The two men hesitated momentarily, wondering how the hell she knew the young bloke was a stone mason. “You are fascinated by the Apprentice Pillar in the Roslin Chapel,” she said, “and the legend, yes?”

 Originally called the “Prince’s Pillar the name morphed over time due to a legend dating from the 18th century, involving the master mason in charge of the stonework in the chapel and his young apprentice mason. According to the legend, the master mason did not believe that the apprentice could perform the complicated task of carving the column without seeing the original which formed the inspiration for the design.

The master mason travelled to see the original himself, but upon his return was enraged to find that the upstart apprentice had completed the column by himself. In a fit of jealous anger, the master mason took his mallet and struck the apprentice on the head, killing him. The legend concludes that as punishment for his crime, the master mason’s face was carved into the opposite corner to forever gaze upon his apprentice’s pillar.

Apprentice Pillar.jpg      On the architrave joining the pillar there is an inscription, Forte est vinum fortior est rex fortiores sunt mulieres super omnia vincit veritas: “Wine is strong, a king is stronger, women are stronger still, but truth conquers all” 

“Ye,” the stone mason shyly admitted. He was totally fascinated by the pillar and the legend.

“You are the “Apprentice” reincarnated,” the gypsy informed him.

Dee was always delighted to take time out of her busy schedule to hear a good yarn and the Scotsman then produced a pile of photos from his back pack. “This me home back in Scotland.” It was an amazing thatched roof structure that had taken him twenty years of craftsmanship to build. He’d even carved the timber toilet seat! Dee was gobsmacked for the dwelling looked like something out of ‘Lord of the Rings.’ He wrote his address and phone number on the back of the photo and gave it to her. “If ye come to Scotland, do visit me,” he insisted.

Another customer entered the shop then, distracting Dee momentarily. She turned back to ask the Scotsman if he’d wait for a minute whilst she served the other customer, but he’d vanished – just like that gone until he visited again a few weeks later arriving and leaving in the same magical kind of way.

Then there were the crystals that just happened to disappear only to reappear weeks later. One such crystal was the amethyst pendent (the gift from the cousin) that fell from its chain around Dee’s neck. Dee heard the crystal hit the floor boards in the kitchen at the back of the shop, stopped to pick it up but couldn’t find it. Dee got her staff involved in the search to no avail and tipped them off to pay extra attention when they vacuumed in that area next. You would surely hear it if the vacuum sucked it up the metal pipe. Six weeks later the pendent was found by a family member, on the floor exactly where it had disappeared. Dee was later informed that crystals often disappear when they need to be cleansed.

And then the drought struck.

A drought that lasted ten long years, causing on-going devastating effects for the local farming and small business community. Dee’s most supportive customers and clients were farmers. Once the drought hit however they were running up huge debts just to keep their livestock fed. They would appear in Dee’s shop noticeably distressed, exhausted and craving the crystal energy. “I had heard it said that when the prime producers suffer, everybody suffers. But since I’d grown up in the city I hadn’t actually understood what that meant until now.”

Drought and then the Sars outbreak, a drop in the Australian dollar all creating a huge loss in tourism the whole district was economically on a downward spiral and on top of it all Dee’s relationship had come to an end.

Unable to afford to keep both staff members Dee was forced to work a 7 day week. This soon began to take its toll and was so adverse to the balanced lifestyle of holistic living she was attempting to live by. The bizarre and unexplained events continued to unfold and many of them were not at all pleasant. Dee was grasping at straws trying to figure it all out. One day she was talking to a friend on the phone. She informed Dee, she’d been suicidal – until she’d visited a Shaman. The friend insisted that the shaman had literally saved her life. Dee asked what the shaman did exactly to heal her. The response sounded a little out there and weird, Dee thought, at least it would to most people. But to Dee it made perfect sense. The shaman had treated her friends’ trauma through ‘soul retrieval’. “I’m training as a shaman next,” Dee declared. “Though it won’t be for some time yet, I’ve got enough to do already.”

A few weeks later Dee was back on the phone to her friend, “Please give me the number of the shaman woman you went to see, I’ve got to go see her. I just did a medicine card spread and it’s pointing to a shaman’s initiation, death and rebirth. I think I’m going crazy. I can’t explain all of these really strange things that keep happening and I don’t understand any of it. I’m exhausted, feel like I’m dying. I need answers, but I’m scared she’ll have me committed to a loony bin. This shaman woman is a former psychiatric nurse you said? If I tell her what I’ve been experiencing I’m going to sound like a crazy person.”

Far from having Dee “committed” the Shaman Claire had confirmed by the end of the session that Dee was indeed an initiating Shaman and was experiencing a ‘shaman’s death.’ “It is a calling,” Claire explained. “You were born this way and have been selected for your psychic and healing abilities. The death is symbolic. It’s a death of the ego, teaching you humility so that you may heal purely from a heart space. If you do not develop your gifts however the power will consume you, turn you insane or kill you.”

Dee was floored, so many questions racing through her mind. “And here I was thinking that to be a shaman simply meant to learn another modality.”

“You have been going through the initiation tests,” Claire continued. “This is why you haven’t been receiving any confirmation for your insights and visions. You are being tested to trust what you see and feel.”

“Does this mean that I have to be a vegan….? Celibate too?” Dee quizzed dreading the response.

“Eating meat will actually be grounding for you. Abstaining from sex at least during the initial initiations will be useful for turning the sexual energy into spiritual energy.”

Claire led a reluctant Dee through a trance journey in which she soon relaxed into the moment she was met by an extraordinary looking and very handsome young Native American man. He had long black hair flowing over his bare shoulders and chest, a black stripe painted across his face, a band around the top of his right bicep with a feather attached and a silvery white wolf sat by his side. His name is White Hawk. Dee instantly fell in love.

Suddenly it was all starting to make some sense. Dee now knew why she’d been so fascinated by Indians her entire life, was so interested in their culture and philosophies, longed to go squat in a tepee to listen to the wise ones speak, why as a child she often plaited her hair and role played as an Indian, hated the cowboys and barracked for the Indians in the movies. She’d been here before with White Hawk – in another life a long time ago. This was like coming home.

White Hawk led Dee to a nearby cave and directed her to lie upon a rock block. He told her that her energy was depleted and he sprinkled herbs upon her. She saw energy aspects (the ego) leaving her body. She stood up and looked down at herself. She was dressed in traditional native Indian attire, long plaits flowed either side, a thick beaded bracelet on her wrist. Intuitively Dee knew she had just been prepared for and was ready to be presented to the tribe for her shaman initiation ceremony – and then she heard the sharp drum strikes beckoning her to return to the present day.

Claire gave Dee a copy of the drumming CD used to induce the trance for journeying. “Be disciplined about it,” Claire strictly instructed. “You will be trained in the ways of the shaman. Journey daily and journal your experiences.”

The next day when Dee journeyed she found herself standing before the tribe. A male tribal elder, cut off one of her plaits and held it up for all to see. The whole tribe yahooed in rejoice and then Dee levitated above the crowd and peered down upon them. The feast began and she inhaled the smoke and scent of roasting meat. Dancing, singing and drums echoed through the air. As the celebration continued throughout the night Dee realised she hadn’t seen White Hawk. She looked up to the overhanging rock and saw him standing silhouetted in the light of the moon with his wolf beside him. She went to be with him. “What is my name?” she quizzed.

“White Eagle,” he responded. He embraced her tightly and kissed her intensely like a long lost lover. “Now we can be together forever.”

2004 – Five neighbouring businesses including one that was 30 years old, all closed their doors for the last time by winter. Dee closed in April and there would be dozens more to follow. Closing the shop had been a really tough call for Dee as she was still in the planning and development process when virtually overnight she had to consider closing and watch all of her dreams and goals evaporate. Rarely a quitter Dee had spent some months in indecision. She’d maintained a friendship with Alannah Dore and discussed her options with her one day. Alannah wisely stated, “Part of being a good business person is to know when to quit.” That was all Dee needed to hear and as it turned out it was the best piece of advice she had ever taken. Dee was exhausted from the emotional drain of the relationship breakdown, combined with the business workload and the gruelling shaman initiations she had worked herself into a state of chronic fatigue and in truth had no energy left to continue.

No one could have known how long the drought was going to last. Many a business operator kept borrowing against their homes in order to keep their businesses afloat and many ended up losing their homes and businesses right up to and well past the end of the drought. Everybody was drained, exhausted and the whole town fell into a state of depression. To this day some of the businesses that survived the drought still aren’t back to the profit margins they had prior to 2004, small business continues to evaporate and many shops remain empty.

Dee continued providing her services from home in a limited capacity. Talking to people over the counter at the shop had brought her much of her business, now she was reliant on expensive advertising which proved to be rather fruitless. It wasn’t until much later Dee could start appreciating why things were unfolding the way they were. Dee was experiencing both the traditional shaman initiations through journeying and the modern day shaman initiations simultaneously. She would not wish this upon her worst enemy. She learnt that it is rare for modern day initiates to survive this or to complete the transformation with their sanity intact. A few of Dee’s closest friends were convinced she was suicidal. “I don’t need to kill myself,” she’d respond. “This thing I am going through is going to kill me anyway.”

Traditionally the initiate was subjected to some vile things like being spat upon by the whole tribe in order to break the will of the ego and transform the initiate into a humble state of being. White Eagle was challenged to confront her fears through being buried in the earth up to her neck and was left there alone all night long fully unprotected in the wilderness. (Months later Dee read about this in a book and confirmed this was indeed a common practice of the tribal people.) White Hawk, who was also an initiating shaman, had secretly come to comfort her that night. The next day however the elders reprimanded them. They told White Hawk that he had weakened White Eagle’s courage through going to comfort her. Consequently White Eagle had a noose placed around her neck, White Hawk mounted his horse and dragged her behind across miles of open country, forcing her to run to keep up.

It was on the fourth day of journeying back in 2003 that Dee discovered that White Hawk and Mark, who she met in 1999 are one in the same soul. “He too is a healer and I was inspired by his work prior to training as a counsellor. The first time I met him and we gazed eye to eye momentarily at one another I knew we had a past life connection, more than one actually I had discovered through regression. We have been following each other around since the stone age.

“This time around, Mark role played the ‘catalyst’ whose presence in my life at the time had triggered some deep passions within me that had been oppressed and I was totally unaware of – until a few months after I opened the business. I was standing there in the shop marveling at my success and declaring, ‘Wow, I’ve got it all now,’ when I got the wake up call which hit me like lightening, a bolt straight to my heart. Instantly I realized that I didn’t have it all. I had it all except for my deepest passionate desire – to be with the one true love.”

Mark and Dee had a platonic friendship and whilst Dee never did tell him about their past life connections, they had delivered some important messages to one another. White Hawk had said, “You must remind me of who I am,” and for a split second his face changed and Dee was looking at Mark. Shaman Claire was not surprised at all when Dee shared this news with her. “Well then,” she said. “You had better do as he asked.”

Dee was trying to figure out how she was supposed to go about reminding Mark of who he is, when the guidance was intuitively fourth coming. She was to teach Mark how to journey. Mark was noticeably impressed by the experience, though his was nothing like Dee’s journey experiences. He raved about it to a mutual friend of theirs who was training as a psychotherapist and consequently she insisted Dee teach her how to journey also.

Later, another one of Dee’s journey’s revealed that White Eagle had foreseen her death during one of her “underworld” journey’s. She and White Hawk were captured by three cowboys. Dee instantly recognized the soul of one of them, being Mark’s wife…. The cowboys tied White Hawk to a rock and molested White Eagle in front of him before they murdered them both. Distressed, White Eagle shared this vision with the elders. “You must accept your fate,” they had told her. “You will return as shaman again when white man is more accepting of our ways.”

One’s whole perception about ‘reality’ changes once you discover how we are all connected, that the soul never dies and merely transforms, karmic consequences will always come back to be dealt with and healed. Life is an endless cycle of deaths and rebirths. The fear of death soon evaporates and is seen as a welcomed relief the moment that life becomes a living hell.

“I vividly recall that winters day in 2004 when I had reached my breaking point. I couldn’t even get out of bed. I was mentally walking the very fine line between insanity and genius. The choice presented itself, life, death or insanity. I instantly eliminated insanity as an option, I’d sooner be dead than take that path. I thought about how far I had come, so far now that it would be such a waste to just shrivel up and die. But I couldn’t take anymore either. ‘Surrender,’ whispered my intuition. ‘Just surrender.'”

2005 –  It took eighteen months for Dee to recover from the chronic fatigue. One weekend she travelled to Melbourne to visit her friend Jen, a naturopath who had opened her new business just as Dee was closing hers. Jen was busy at work when Dee arrived. “There’s a psychologist upstairs who’s teaching the Emotional Freedom Technique to a class this weekend. She’s starting the intro to the course shortly. If you are interested you can go check it out.”

(Emotional Freedom Techniques (or EFT) is an emotional healing technique, which is based on a revolutionary discovery that violates most of the beliefs of conventional psychology. It contends that the cause of all negative emotions is a disruption in the body’s energy system.)  http://www.emofree.com/eft-tutorial/tapping-basics/what-is-eft.html

It never ceased to amaze Dee, each and every one of her teachers had originally been, or still were ‘conventional’ health professionals. During this EFT course she learnt that two of the attendees were the Directors of two of Melbourne’s major hospitals.

By the end of her first session practicing EFT Dee was fully healed from a major core issue that had troubled her throughout her entire life. She had already worked through many layers and levels of this issue of parental abandonment and neglect as a child, through applying the other therapies she had learnt to date, but the root of the issue persisted and had consistently undermined her self-esteem and sense of worth.

By the end of the course that weekend Dee concluded that EFT rendered obsolete many of the longer healing processes she’d been using. EFT clears the blocks instantly, just like when you unkink the garden hose and allow the water to flow freely once again. “I have successfully used EFT with many clients and students since then treating and healing everything from physical pain like sciatica to emotional and spiritual trauma (PTSD)

“The most perfect thing about EFT is that whilst occasionally you may need some assistance to resolve a really deep and destructive issue or major ailment, once you learn the technique you have a tool for life in healing yourself of just about anything and everything, eliminate negative beliefs, overcome limitations all without the need for anything but the EFT recipe. This is the number one most empowering and powerfully effective technique I have discovered.”

Yet again Dee had another one of those timely chance meetings, this time with the publisher of an independent monthly Newspaper which was distributed in his local town an hour and a half away. He was about to launch a new edition of the newspaper in Dee’s town, going in competition with the only media network (that he’d formally worked for as an editor) which had a stranglehold on all local news and advertising (other than TV and radio.) “Initially I thought I would simply be contributing an article or two – that was before Andrew actually saw my first two articles which I gave him to proofread.”

“There’s only one problem,” Andrew smirked when he’d finished reading Dee’s work. “You are a better writer than I am.”

Literally overnight Dee became the Chief Editor of her local edition. She was writing half of the paper including business advertorials and even the monthly horoscopes, which Andrew also published in his local edition. Both Andrew and Dee loved nothing more than to expose corruption, write thought provoking and controversial pieces about everything from the education system to politics. They were getting tipped off from numerous sources including local council members providing them with the inside scoop.

Part of Dee’s remuneration package was free advertising of her healing services. And then Dee came up with the brilliant idea to run a special ‘lift out feature’ which she called “Savvy Mind, Body & Soul.” Up until this point Dee had not been at all interested in selling advertising, but this feature was her special baby, she knew the industry she was targeting and spoke their lingo. Since Dee had won the business award she’d noticed that the flood gates had opened and suddenly the town had been inundated with every kind of therapist /practitioner offering just about every alternative modality in existence. But there was no adequate or affordable way for them to advertise or to educate and inform the public of the services they offered – until now. Dee blitzed Andrew’s advertising sales for the month with the very first Savvy edition and since the feature had well and truly paid for itself it became a regular feature.

2007- Dee started teaching a Natural Therapies course each term through her local Adult Education College. EFT, crystal therapy, chakra cleansing and balancing, ear candling, energy massage and meditation.

When another therapists asked Dee why she was teaching everyone the ‘tools of the trade’ Dee simply responded, “We do not heal anyone who doesn’t care to be healed. We merely facilitate the healing using the appropriate tools. If everybody has the tools and knows how to use them in order to treat themselves then humanity as a whole will be a healthy and empowered species. It is not our job to “fix” somebody else. Our job is to lead by example, share the knowledge and pass on the tools of empowerment so they can “fix” themselves.”

2008 – Dee’s career took yet another unexpected turn when she was pulled into working with mainstream businesses, providing services in the financial area. The newspaper had folded since the publisher had bought into yet another business, overworked himself and ended up in the hospital suffering a breakdown.

“I don’t understand this,” Dee complained to Alannah Dore. “I know what my purpose is. Have a pretty good idea of what my mission in life entails. This town is loaded with people who desperately need healing services but I am banging my head against a brick wall trying to drum enough business on that alone in order to feed myself and live. I don’t see the connection or relevance if there is one, to my having to go work in the mainstream, even if I do rather enjoy supporting others with their businesses and playing with other people’s money.”

Alannah laughed. “If you are always only working with spirit you will become too airy fairy. You need to be ‘grounded’ in reality in order to be balanced and affective.”

2013- The veil of illusion completely fell and Dee fully awakened.She had been piecing together a giant jigsaw puzzle for years and now the final pieces had fallen into place. The dots all connected and she took the biggest leap in consciousness yet. Like crawling out from under a rock in the tiny part of the world she called home, Dee had woken up to the big wide world out there and discovered all of the hidden truths that had been lurking behind the very thin veil in plain sight all along. Being a Cancer ascendant she had been comfortable hiding out in her crab shell doing her best to protect herself from the darkness and evils of the world. Though Gaye, another Shaman who Dee met in 2004 had informed her then that she was a Star Seed. Dee hadn’t heard of the term before and on further investigation she came across a book entitled ‘The Light Shall Set You Free,’ which is all about Star Seeds and their mission in the world. Dee had come to discover that she was here to assist in exposing the dark forces, anchor the 5th dimensional energy, raise the consciousness of humanity and work in the creation of the new world.

It is a bit impossible to expose the dark forces if you aren’t aware of who the enemy is exactly and if you aren’t willing to face them first within yourself, only then can you deal with them out there more effectively. Dee had been doing a really good job facing her own dark shadows, however there was  something more that was about to slap her in the face at the beginning of 2013 and wake her up big-time with a start. The lesson was delivered rather harshly and coldly through one of those bad karmic soul connections. An extremely deceptive creature, he flew in briefly lied his arse off and flew out again – a literal fly by night!

Left hanging on the knife-edge Dee was reeling and felt terribly confused for some months. She literally felt like she had been touched by evil to the deepest core of her soul. But why had this particular deceiver affected her so profoundly? After all, liars and deceivers are everywhere and frequently crossed Dee’s path. An inner battle began. On one hand Dee was struggling to believe and accept the truth in what had occurred. Had she blown it all out of proportion? Surely no one could be that cruel and nasty for no apparent reason. And Dee so didn’t like to think the worst about anybody. On the other hand, yes people can be that cruel and deceptive for no apparent reason and to identify with the abuser and empathise with them, the term ‘Stockholm syndrome’ had been coined to define the unhealthy and disempowering condition.

A past life regression, together with a study of her and his astrological natal charts, confirmed and revealed that Dee had crossed paths with the ‘fly by night’ before. Actually she knew him in her last life, which had ended at the age of fifteen when he (an old man then who was a Mormon and intended to marry her) murdered her and another teenaged boy when he caught the teens fraternizing together. Dee had actually seen this past life scene before in a previous regression she had untaken a few years earlier after she had met and instantly recognised one of her own; (belonging to the same soul group.)

“I felt like I already knew him the moment I set eyes on him. In fact there was something so familiar about him that I thought perhaps I had actually met him before and he was looking back at me smiling as though he was thinking the same thing. So I walked right on up to him and started to say, “Have we met before?” And just as the words spilled from my mouth, psychically his name hit me. I’d heard the name mentioned earlier a couple of times by people and had been informed that they were talking about a former professional sports star. I tuned out since I have no interest in and actually detest his sport, I never watched it on TV and I had never seen him before until now. Here I was standing face to face with him feeling like a twit. After all every Aussie girl would know who this handsome dude was, wouldn’t they? And what I had just asked him suddenly sounded like a really lame pick up line.

“Politely he introduced himself and asked if I was having a good night out. ‘Just wonderful,’ I replied. “Got friends visiting from Darwin. See ya.” And with that I shot off in a hurry leaving him standing there in bewilderment. On returning home, I googled him, got his date of birth and referred to my Mystic Medusa’s Soul Mating astrological guide. Our Psyche and Eros  connection equates to the ‘karma drama’ and ‘Haven’t we met before?’ scenario, according to Medusa’s humorous account. Instant mutual soul recognition. Naturally I was stunned and curious to learn more about our ‘karma drama.’ The regression had revealed that He was the Mormons other victim. The old man had killed him with a spade and then strangled me to death. That explained why I could never tolerate wearing anything tight fitting around my neck.”

“As the events with the ‘fly by night’ were unfolding we were leaving one venue headed for another and happened to pass by the former sports pro on the way out the door. This was the same venue where I had met him a few years earlier. Freaky? Yes, even for me who had become somewhat accustomed to such bizarre happenings.”

Yes indeed, all of these bizarre events turn an otherwise ordinary existence into quite an extraordinary one – just as Dee’s natal astrology predicts it would be.

In line with the astrological indicators, the negative karmic ties too had unfolded as predicted. A meeting between her and the fly by night would be marred with deception and trigger in one another dark, deep wounds, vulnerabilities and weaknesses that would be exposed. This was all unfolding in line with the rare and current transiting Pluto/Uranus squares which were directly triggering a number of areas in both of their charts (Dee’s particularly in relation to her purpose and life mission.) In the months that followed, she would literally experience a purging, cleansing and purification process as she healed from the shock and grief of this karmic tragedy and trauma.

Early in 2013 Dee had also been conducting some research on the Agenda 21 http://www.surviveunagenda21depopulation.com/ when she met Wade through her business services. Vice president of the Farmers Association, Wade, a  Veteran Political Activist who has been at it for 30 years, headed up numerous protest campaigns during this time and has often been known to go head to head with the politicians over water rights and Nazi style legislation. When Wade started to inform Dee about all of the regulations the government were subjecting the farmers to in an attempt to destroy them Dee interrupted, “Is this the Agenda 21 you are talking about? I’ve just been researching that and everything you are describing is a part of the New World Order plan.”

Needless to say this whole conversation triggered what became a full on investigative research campaign for Dee which consequently led to her joining the dots on this massive control system (the matrix) and the elites plan to depopulate the world.  This explained everything, why all of the small businesses in town were consistently being wiped out, the monopoly of the big corporations, loss of properties to bank foreclosure, whole industries being destroyed overnight, the 10 year long drought that had been created by chemtrail spraying/ HAARP, (geoengineering weather control technology)

Dee’s research and investigations sent her into another shock for a couple of months and now she had this trauma to heal. There would be no more denial and attempts to try and shut out the truth and reality. “Alannah was right about the airy fairy thing, I had been using my spiritual practices like a drug in my attempts to bliss out from the world and that was just as addictive and dangerous as substance abuse. Had I not been forced back out there into the mainstream business world, developed an interest in economics, discovered the bogus financial system, seen for myself the destruction occurring across all industries and been personally affected by what is going on I would still be trying to piece that puzzle together.”

Dee recalls what she had been told over a decade ago by another psychic, “You are going to be prepared for what is to come, (scarcity) and I am being told to convey that you are not to worry about money.” Dee intuitively knew she wasn’t just talking about money scarcity, she was talking about food scarcity and everything else and now Dee knew exactly how that is coming about.

Dee is one of the spiritual warriors of the zodiac (North Node in Aries, 9th house)

The North Node indicates ones’ life purpose and mission. The Ninth House is commonly referred to as the House of Philosophy, higher education, it all boils down to understanding: understanding what we see and feel, and probing further in hopes of realizing true meaning. Whether it’s philosophy or psychology, the Ninth House reminds us that we are on a voyage of discovery. Another approach to a clearer understanding of life, and more importantly, of the unknown, is through spirituality. Taking this a step further, psychics as the bearers of relevant information also come into play. Understanding and accepting that which is greater than us, and our world, is key to the Ninth House. Additionally, the Ninth House addresses publishing and multinational ventures such as import/export businesses. The ninth House is best described as philosophically inclined in the search for meaning and truth. http://www.astrology.com/